and i cant, i cant get up when youre gone....

[a_rose_so_sweet]

today wasnt too great, but then i knew it wasnt going to be. first day back to school. ugh! i hate it. have so much work to do now cause they all try to cram it in. was to stressed to pay attention so i didnt really do anything. had practice tonight. it went well. routine is looking good. glasgow this weekend. woo!
it's been one month today since brent's visit. taking that one pretty hard. i was doing fine for a while and then today i just started thinking about everything again. all the great times we've had i will never forget them. and how there will always be a place in my heart just for him... since he's not here that space is empty and it does hurt, but it's worth it. and im trying to stay strong i really am, but i just dont know if i can do it. i miss you so much brent!
lately ive been realizing how jealous i get when i see people with their boyfriends or girlfriends lol. ill get really jealous then get angry and then ill just feel really lonely. it sucks being alone. and i hate having to always think about what my life could be like. i want to be content with my life the way it is. i begining to think that it's impossible and ill never get to have that satisfaction.
o0o well...

well jamie just called so im gonna go talk to him cause he is the most awesome person ever! later