Compassion
How do I still have compassion for someone who has let me down alot. I dont know. I thought I still had feelings for my ex but as I talked to him last nite, one its like hes someone completely different and two, I realized how much I do love my current boyfriend and want to build a life with him. And yet I find myself trying to help my ex boyfriend because he needs help. I dont want to say I feel sorry for him, but I hate to see someone feel like they have no one to turn to. Hes a young guy that is heading in the wrong direction. He always counted on me to help him out and I still think he needs that reassurance. Perhaps I am being naive in trying to help him out. He is old enough to know the errors he has made and I should just forget. But I remind myself he is younger than me and hes a guy. They take a lot longer to learn things and realize their mistakes and how to be better the next time. I guess I still care but I know that hes not who I want anymore. I love my boyfriend so much. I cant believe that we are together. This is a person that I was totally into in high school but he didnt really give me the time of day. I mean, granted we were quote on quote seeing each other but it never moved past that. And then seeing each other twice after high school and then for him to track me down last year and us now ending up with each other. Its crazy. I love him. Im getting older and learning more and more every year.