DAMN IT!
I hung out with my ex Tyler this week. And It Was Amazing. Not how I had expected it to be at all. We kissed, and cuddled, and talked about our feelings like idiots. We even slept together. It was wonderful.
And now, I feel like I have let him believe that I am ready for a relationship. I am, but not logicly. And not right now. It would be a terrible idea.
And then, tonight, when I got home, I got a text from Will saying that he misses me. And that he wants to come over and see me tomorrow. WTF? I hate it. I want to have him in my life so badly, but I had begun to feel like there was no point in hoping for more than friends. And now, he seems to want to spend time with me again. Right when Tyler and I start to form another bond.
Why can't they both have just stayed where they were. One, a comfortable distance away, and one close and safe.
Damn them both. I hope I can make this work. Maybe it'll work itself out once there is a distance between the 2 of them and myself.
And now, I feel like I have let him believe that I am ready for a relationship. I am, but not logicly. And not right now. It would be a terrible idea.
And then, tonight, when I got home, I got a text from Will saying that he misses me. And that he wants to come over and see me tomorrow. WTF? I hate it. I want to have him in my life so badly, but I had begun to feel like there was no point in hoping for more than friends. And now, he seems to want to spend time with me again. Right when Tyler and I start to form another bond.
Why can't they both have just stayed where they were. One, a comfortable distance away, and one close and safe.
Damn them both. I hope I can make this work. Maybe it'll work itself out once there is a distance between the 2 of them and myself.