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tonight is one of those nights where you i tear myself apart with my thoughts. it makes me sad in my head thinking about stuff but i just cant seem to stop and thats why these nights are just the worst. i guess its the day that leads up to the night and today was hopeful. it was probably the happiest i've been in about a year. it just felt like there was a ray of light and the end of the tunnel and this past year i gave up hope for ever finding that ray of light. than i see glimpse of it and as night time comes it seems like it slipped away. i feel like i only get through to you for a little bit of time like i only have a certain window of time of oppurtunity to tell you how i feel and for you to understand. i think i lost that once again.