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this entry is retarded, dont read it. most of my livejournal entries are either lyrics or thoughts. i dont really know what else to write about. i really wish i went to puerto rico with a friend or that i was with someone who could come.... things are only as bad as you make them out to be. if youre in a shitty situatuon with shitty people and a shitty attitude, dont expect anything but shit. if i was here with my friends, i would have the most fun i've ever had in my life. i wish i came here last year with carlie. it would have been a fucking blast. i wish i came here with any one actually. any one real. the language barrier sucks. i cant wait to come home. i dont know why though, home sucks sort of. because i dont do anything or hang out with anyone. i hope college is filled with good people. it wont be, this world is filled with phonies. i need to meet someone life changing. i need my life to be changed. ive met life changing people, they keep on changing my life too, well when they feel like coming into it. they come and go as they please, i hope theyre happy that they do. i just want someone to change my life for the better and stay. not even a girlfriend, although that would be ideal. i dont think that i could meet a great girl and not like her... i dont know really, i havent met many great girls but the 4 or so i know, i like them all. i guess im dumb for that. sometimes, i think im going crazy. i always stand for the same morals and stuff but sometimes i contradict myself for fun like tonight actually. look where i started this entry and look where it is now. crazy, i suppose, but this is my livejournal and like i said i just write thoughts. whatever im thinking. im not asking any one to read it or to find it interesting. im not interesting, i dont think. i wish i had friends to hang out with. i mean i have great friends, but we really dont share any of the same interests or hobbies so we dont really hang out. i dont know if its because 1. theyre hobbies are gay 2. i think everythings gay and to negative or 3. i dont have any hobbies so how can me and anyones hobbies be similar. hobbies is a dumb as hell word. say it out loud, i dont think ive ever really looked at that word and thought about it. i dont know if any one does that. i dont think people put as much thought into things as i do really. i dont know if i do all the time or if just at certain times. i guess you have to be in a certain mood, you know? you have to be in a certain mood to do everything. or sometimes you dont, sometimes you be a trooper and take one for the team. id take one for the team anyday, i like helping out my friends. i wish people would help me out more, you know, take one for me, listen to me when im having rough times or just in general, i have alot to say. i knew a person that did all this stuff and i guess thats why i i thought i was in love.