specificities
today i was in a complete and utter fog- and i think i was not as sober as i thought i was when i woke up at 11 and wandered down to the cafeteria in my pajamas and jeans and couldn't swipe my card and stared at the girl in the elevator. but its all well and good, because the fog lasted all day so i could fill out job applications and write essays and talk to people who i want to like me- all while in this dense "i sound like an idiot and i can't stop myself" daze. and then shit happened and i kind of fixed it but it is still going to suck, so off to do what i do best- deny deny deny. and thats as specific as i get right now.