Scatter like ice from the spoon...
I did manage to go out last night.
I was greeted with lots of hugs and people who had seen my posts and such asking if I was okay and people wanting to talk about it with me.
This is what keeps me going. I know the BEST people in the world... and I feel so cared for by them.
Two of my favorite people were there and got my address so that they could invite me to their wedding this summer! YAY! That brightened my night significantly.
I really tried to get into dancing... and succeeded at certain moments. I talked to people and got hugs and had moments where I really thought things were fixed... and they were, partially.
A little bit after the Time Warp I crashed again and decided it was probably a good idea to leave soon.
My night took a different turn than I had originally planned, but one that needed to happen. I feel more clear on certain things now. It was a VERY good thing.
I'm mad at myself for letting my parents get to me.
I'm mad at them for being bastards.
I'm mostly mad at myself for all my brain-stuff right now. It really has nothing to do with anybody except my own goddamn thoughts.
I wouldn't mind a day in bed to just write and sleep and eat and DO NOTHING!
I don't think I'll be able to do that anytime soon.
I wish I could afford to call in sick to work...
I was greeted with lots of hugs and people who had seen my posts and such asking if I was okay and people wanting to talk about it with me.
This is what keeps me going. I know the BEST people in the world... and I feel so cared for by them.
Two of my favorite people were there and got my address so that they could invite me to their wedding this summer! YAY! That brightened my night significantly.
I really tried to get into dancing... and succeeded at certain moments. I talked to people and got hugs and had moments where I really thought things were fixed... and they were, partially.
A little bit after the Time Warp I crashed again and decided it was probably a good idea to leave soon.
My night took a different turn than I had originally planned, but one that needed to happen. I feel more clear on certain things now. It was a VERY good thing.
I'm mad at myself for letting my parents get to me.
I'm mad at them for being bastards.
I'm mostly mad at myself for all my brain-stuff right now. It really has nothing to do with anybody except my own goddamn thoughts.
I wouldn't mind a day in bed to just write and sleep and eat and DO NOTHING!
I don't think I'll be able to do that anytime soon.
I wish I could afford to call in sick to work...