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my head feels terrible..........need to vent.......raw
why do i waste time getting to know ppl i know will not add anything to my life.......and their stubborn arrogant ways wont allow me to add anything to there’s
why does it seem like majority of people are empty shallow.......bodies......like beautiful vases...with all this lovely hand painted detail........that are wonderful to look at but.....
are just vases........empty vases
where is the substance........i can't be the only person that looks at a person....and befriends them based solely on their character.....
what is the big deal about looks.....that shit fades
when i'm 67.....my soul mate isn’t going to look the same as when we were 20......
but it is a possibility that they will love the same
kiss the same.....hold me the same.....balance me out the same.....pray me through the same......stimulate my mind the same....................elevate my spirit the same
-sigh-
why is it that everyone is chasing relationships.....
and don't know the first thing about love?
why?
why say you like someone...........and hurt them the most..................
blind.......
i hear so many people talking about soul.....depth........poetry......art
but for what...................................................why
hobbies
but what happened to destiny
CHARACTER INTEGRITY
i hate it in my shell......well right now i do.................i desire someone to talk to..........but there is no one that captures my mind...............groupies............users..................empty........................
i need to talk to God...................................i need to talk to Him...............i've never felt so alone.......................but there are so many people around me...............................................................................i wish i was more consistent...............................................................................................................if im laughing..........that means i am unhappy.................if i am expressing.........that means i am extremely happy
if i'm crying..............................................................................................sigh yuk
image aint everything...............shit what looks good aint always good.............................................................................
strip everyone of the skin they bleed
we all have hearts and viens
what makes anyone better than the other
nothing
what differentiates us in fact
is the thoughts we allow
the beliefs we yield to
the things we say
the things we do
sigh
ion care i just want a friend
that understands purpose
that embodies character
that has a pure soul
makes good decisions...........clean mind
slow to anger
quick to forgive
independent
loving
knows what love is
and is able to reciprocate it
i just want a friend
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
sounds like i want Jesus..............why do i run from Him
iono.......................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................blah
i can't be mad at people for being who they are
i dont know their story
what they have been through to get where they are
a lot of ladies that i know are hella strong to endure the tragedy that they have and still smile....and speak...and live
love
i just wish i had someone in my life that i felt like i could relate to....................everyone in my life either is teaching me or learning from me
but i want someone to love me, talk to me about that good ish.............go on safari expidiitons with me..................scuba dive and sky dive................preach and teach..............help others.....................go into the peace corps with me................................learn about agriculture and geography..................history
someone that is driven by their destiny..................motivated by their dreams...............passionate
passionate about life..............understands that life
has meaning
and we all have purpose
but it is our job to find that purpose
and walk in it
is it too much to ask
maybe they already left me while i was out here chasing women and relationships.................glory....fame...........money and clout...................................................
maybe they are already in Africa.....looking at artifacts thinking..................i wish i had a friend
maybe i missed em
nooo, dag
sigh
beauty find me
come back
-back to empty conversations and grey cubicles...laptops....and paperwork......alcohol....and sex-
why do i waste time getting to know ppl i know will not add anything to my life.......and their stubborn arrogant ways wont allow me to add anything to there’s
why does it seem like majority of people are empty shallow.......bodies......like beautiful vases...with all this lovely hand painted detail........that are wonderful to look at but.....
are just vases........empty vases
where is the substance........i can't be the only person that looks at a person....and befriends them based solely on their character.....
what is the big deal about looks.....that shit fades
when i'm 67.....my soul mate isn’t going to look the same as when we were 20......
but it is a possibility that they will love the same
kiss the same.....hold me the same.....balance me out the same.....pray me through the same......stimulate my mind the same....................elevate my spirit the same
-sigh-
why is it that everyone is chasing relationships.....
and don't know the first thing about love?
why?
why say you like someone...........and hurt them the most..................
blind.......
i hear so many people talking about soul.....depth........poetry......art
but for what...................................................why
hobbies
but what happened to destiny
CHARACTER INTEGRITY
i hate it in my shell......well right now i do.................i desire someone to talk to..........but there is no one that captures my mind...............groupies............users..................empty........................
i need to talk to God...................................i need to talk to Him...............i've never felt so alone.......................but there are so many people around me...............................................................................i wish i was more consistent...............................................................................................................if im laughing..........that means i am unhappy.................if i am expressing.........that means i am extremely happy
if i'm crying..............................................................................................sigh yuk
image aint everything...............shit what looks good aint always good.............................................................................
strip everyone of the skin they bleed
we all have hearts and viens
what makes anyone better than the other
nothing
what differentiates us in fact
is the thoughts we allow
the beliefs we yield to
the things we say
the things we do
sigh
ion care i just want a friend
that understands purpose
that embodies character
that has a pure soul
makes good decisions...........clean mind
slow to anger
quick to forgive
independent
loving
knows what love is
and is able to reciprocate it
i just want a friend
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
sounds like i want Jesus..............why do i run from Him
iono.......................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................blah
i can't be mad at people for being who they are
i dont know their story
what they have been through to get where they are
a lot of ladies that i know are hella strong to endure the tragedy that they have and still smile....and speak...and live
love
i just wish i had someone in my life that i felt like i could relate to....................everyone in my life either is teaching me or learning from me
but i want someone to love me, talk to me about that good ish.............go on safari expidiitons with me..................scuba dive and sky dive................preach and teach..............help others.....................go into the peace corps with me................................learn about agriculture and geography..................history
someone that is driven by their destiny..................motivated by their dreams...............passionate
passionate about life..............understands that life
has meaning
and we all have purpose
but it is our job to find that purpose
and walk in it
is it too much to ask
maybe they already left me while i was out here chasing women and relationships.................glory....fame...........money and clout...................................................
maybe they are already in Africa.....looking at artifacts thinking..................i wish i had a friend
maybe i missed em
nooo, dag
sigh
beauty find me
come back
-back to empty conversations and grey cubicles...laptops....and paperwork......alcohol....and sex-