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uhhhhhhhg. i'm living in the past and it sucks. i'm remaking one of yee old pump up mixes because i just realized that i haven't listened to it in forever, and i have no idea where it is. so all these songs started playing that just brought me straight back to about 8 months ago.... or so.... gah, everything was just soo simple back then. friday nights we'd all go out and get into some crazy shit, while blasting that cd in background (this was before kathryn started to undergo her niceness strike) then we'd come back to my house around 2 in the morning, pretty shitty, pass out, wake up the next morning with hella bad hangovers and just sit in my kitchen in disbelief about how insane last night was. then i'd just sleep all day, go to work, see cory, party with cory.... sleep with cory.... then have something to think about for most of the week, and look forward to for the rest of it. i think about how much we used to party and just get fucked the fuck up and it truly amazes me. i can't imagine living that way now, but i'll always miss the time when i did and was completely naive and jaded to it while it was going on. it's been so long since i've been hella shitty, especially with my friends, and thats all we used to do. strange strange strange. i just keep wondering what this year will amount to and what will become the "norm". i need some fucking stability in my life.