May 24, 2004 00:04
Im done opening my heart to people and letting them rip it out of my chest. He was the only person who was there everytimes i needed him. And now. I think i lost him forever too. I thought i was happy again. And i played a lot of stuff off like i was happy. but inside. im not. I thought things would start gettin better. and nothing is. NOTHING.
And i want it all to be gone. I want a new life. I need to start over, but im stuck trying to figure out what i want in life. And just when i thought i had it all figured out. I get shot down AGAIN. Im serioulsy going crazy. Ill be all happy one second and the next i just want to punch a wall or something to let off all this stress. The only person who i could cry to and the only person who would hold me and i felt so great. I cant do that anymore. So its all building up and writing about all this shit doesnt even help anymore. Im about to explode.