.these ARE the days of MY life.
things are looking up. heres what happened.
we started to talk and things got heated. same as usual. i told him things that i felt and he expressed his views also. phew. it kinda felt good to get that off my chest to him. he asked if i wanted him to leave. i didnt say anything, because i didnt want to be a sissy and say no, but i wanted to scare him to let him know that im not playin this shit anymore. i told him that his joke he made...'no matter what i do, you will never leave me' was taken seriously because of the way he acts. i think i got through to him. well he told me he was going to his moms, and ben shows up and takes him over there. im not sure why he didnt take the car. that confused me. im STILL not sure about that one. he left. i cried. felt good to. so i did. i was sure that was the end. because he was talkin serious about us not going anywhere, and if that was what i wanted. he kissed me on the back of my head, and left. i turned off all the lights and went to the room and turned my show on. i layed there about 30 minutes..i think. and he came back, walked in the room, TRIED to pick me up, i wouldnt let him. he laughed, i laughed. and this is what he told me...
-we are going to make a ASHLEYCALEB night. we are going to set aside this time for just us. this makes me very happy because i expressed to him that i was tired of seeing him sleep and talk to his dad on the phone.
-we are going to take time out for us, and only us. we are going to do something on that night. we arent going to stay here. which also makes me very happy.
-we arent ever going to break up. im stuck with him, and im just going to have to get over it. (hes joking) [but i thought it was cute]
i hope things continue to work out. i feel like we have came to and understanding. atleast for now.
we may be gettin cell phones here in a couple of weeks. glad so i can keep in touch with him when hes not here, and its also good because of the POS car.
oh and we had an offer come up yesterday. jodys husband has a condo he rents out. well he wants to sell it. and they have offered it to us. we could buy it and the payments would be a lot less than here. its 2 bedrooms. BUT theres the downside to this...its off stewarts ferry. not exactly where its at, i do know where stew. ferry is...but not the condo. ive heard its nice. it has a fireplace?? that would be nice. oh yes it would. AND ben may move in with us. if that does happen, i WILL NOT pick up after him and he WILL NOT make a mess. ugh, i hate the way he does. he eats like hes starving and HES NOT. if that happens i will go nuts.
YAY, im gettin my teeth fixed tomorrow. im scared tho. the whole grinding on the teeth and breakin off whats there. eww..that is going to kill me. they may numb it, but nothing will help THAT feeling. NOTHING.
SARA- you confuse me. haha, you im me and barely talk. oh well, its the thought that counts huh? :)
BRIT-dont stress my BS. me and caleb are going to be together forever, EVEN if we have to kill each other lol.