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Man o man where should i start? I really dont know but listen. I keep getting this feeling in my gut that James is fucking with someone else. Sometimes i feel uneasy about it but then again i know how some females are and he's just that type of guy where females tend to flock around him. I know this but i feel that jealousy about to arise and i try to chill. We actually were at the same club on thursday night. Basically i just fell back away from him. I didnt want to seem like i was hawkin dude all crazy. But i knew he was looking out for me to. From time to time during the club he would approach me saying lil shit. So i knew he was still acknowledging me. Then at one point in time he even said that he missed me. But i still tried not to pay it any mind because he was fucked up and he was trying to see me that same night. which is fucked up because i had'nt talked to him in like 4 days than all of a sudden he wants to see me! Yea so i kind of felt some type of way. HE called me once and didnt call me back that same night. I know how he can be and he's not to trust worthy. I picked up on his actions early! maybe because he's a gemini and they arent too trustworthy. Its all good i just want to tell him that i dont want to be his lil fuck friend, i'd rather stay friends. I'm thinking that might fuck with his head a lil bit or he might play it cool. He can magnify the situation more than it should though so he might flip out. Its the weekend so i doubt i shall be seeing him any time soon. I asked gigi if he was fuckin wit this chick named janielle but she was saying that its nothing like that and she thinks he isnt fucking with anybody anyway. So that kind of gave me an idea of what he might be doing. I mean if he looked like he was fucking with somebody, a person might know. But than again who knows because if she couldnt pick up that me and him are fucking with each other on the low then not many peolep might know what its hitting for between me and James. Which is cool but still that means he could be fucking with someone else on the low. but i did do that dirty with him so if hes fuckin with someone and me than thats a problem. We did it dirty like three times already and he said he was sprung. O yea i seen him outside thursday night and i mentioned the females to him and he was like "i cant help that they like me" and some shit like "i dont be doing nothing" yea righ nygga, i have that feeling and i dont like that shit. Thats the problem with him though those fuckin females be on his dick and i gotta play the cut like shit is cool. and what gets me is that he actually admitted that he knows that i care for him and that i just have and unsual way of showing it. and yes i have to admit i do because i'm still working on showing more affection and trying not to be so skeptical but shit you never know ya dig. Use your heart, not your mind.