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Semi-Formal was nice, but I wasn't totally with it once the dancing started. We had a nice dinner, and then awards. I recieved a senior award for Faithfullness, which was rewarding. In a way I knew that I would get some kind of award because EB memebers always get one, but I felt that my award was fitting and appreciated the recognition.
After the dancing started all of a sudden I went into this downward sprial, and realized what a crappy day at work I had and that the headache that I had at 4pm when I left was all of sudden still there, and then I started to feel sorry for myself. Boy was it a bad day, I am glad it was my last day in the office. Part of me felt sad, becasue I realized what I realized at the begining of this year, which is that I no longer had that group of friends, that I would just be the freind of groups of friends and that I wasn't in the group. I all of sudden went back to middle school days and started feeling sorry for myself. I guess that comes with the price of always having older friends in a situation like this. On the dance floor I felt like I couldn't look at anyone and have the connection of knowing what their feeling like, or knowing that as soon as we connected they wanted to come over and dance with me. I wish I was older and I wouldn't have this problem, I think it would be wrong of me to say that I just can connect with completely with someone my age, I just think its rare.
I mean that wasn't completely it, part of it was the music. The DJ really bothered me by playing every type of muscie back to back, why not mix it up so you can be abel to sit down in between a sone. 6 Frank Sinatras, who knows how many salsa/latin dancing songs, SWING, the 70s, 80s, and 90s. HELLO mix it up! As Jessy said "DJ Mike sucks, and DJ Mike always sucks, so why do we always have him" Well the answer is he is free, but hellp after DJing so much, how come he doesn't get it?
Looking foward to the bon fire tonight, but I will not be consuming alcohol, maybe just root beer.
After the dancing started all of a sudden I went into this downward sprial, and realized what a crappy day at work I had and that the headache that I had at 4pm when I left was all of sudden still there, and then I started to feel sorry for myself. Boy was it a bad day, I am glad it was my last day in the office. Part of me felt sad, becasue I realized what I realized at the begining of this year, which is that I no longer had that group of friends, that I would just be the freind of groups of friends and that I wasn't in the group. I all of sudden went back to middle school days and started feeling sorry for myself. I guess that comes with the price of always having older friends in a situation like this. On the dance floor I felt like I couldn't look at anyone and have the connection of knowing what their feeling like, or knowing that as soon as we connected they wanted to come over and dance with me. I wish I was older and I wouldn't have this problem, I think it would be wrong of me to say that I just can connect with completely with someone my age, I just think its rare.
I mean that wasn't completely it, part of it was the music. The DJ really bothered me by playing every type of muscie back to back, why not mix it up so you can be abel to sit down in between a sone. 6 Frank Sinatras, who knows how many salsa/latin dancing songs, SWING, the 70s, 80s, and 90s. HELLO mix it up! As Jessy said "DJ Mike sucks, and DJ Mike always sucks, so why do we always have him" Well the answer is he is free, but hellp after DJing so much, how come he doesn't get it?
Looking foward to the bon fire tonight, but I will not be consuming alcohol, maybe just root beer.