Touched
CSU senior send off night was yesterday. I felt very inarticulate after I ended up falling into pieces in front of everyone, which surprised the heck out of me, because this entire year I have been saying how I can't wait to move, which is still true but CSU has changed me in so many ways and has been a family to me, with good and bad, with suffering and joy, with hurt and with healing and leaving s community like that is somewhat of a hard reality, its just like a family you may not think you miss or care about them until reality hits and then they are no longer there.
I was touched by the few that said that I made a difference to them, for the ones said in front of the group, and to the ones who came up to me later. Ani's words meant a lot, and for the first time I had a little affirmation and validation from someone on EB, I think that is what always made EB so hard, was my group and how we were so quick to say somthing sucked or to critic it but we were never good at saying good job. It may the suffering that I went through for the past 2 years completely worth it and it gave it meaning, and I am grateful that the Lord saw that I was unworthy, in need of humility, unequipped, and lost and that he gave me the grace to serve him.
VASALLUS, meaning servant is what I was tattoed on my leg when I was 16, I heard his call to serve at a young age, and I look foward to the future when that calling comes to complete fullfillment and I serve my Lord every day.
I was touched by the few that said that I made a difference to them, for the ones said in front of the group, and to the ones who came up to me later. Ani's words meant a lot, and for the first time I had a little affirmation and validation from someone on EB, I think that is what always made EB so hard, was my group and how we were so quick to say somthing sucked or to critic it but we were never good at saying good job. It may the suffering that I went through for the past 2 years completely worth it and it gave it meaning, and I am grateful that the Lord saw that I was unworthy, in need of humility, unequipped, and lost and that he gave me the grace to serve him.
VASALLUS, meaning servant is what I was tattoed on my leg when I was 16, I heard his call to serve at a young age, and I look foward to the future when that calling comes to complete fullfillment and I serve my Lord every day.