Piano Exam
OK...so I took the fricken piano exam.
I thought that although it was a lot better than last time, I still did horribly, and most likely failed.
I scored myself with the book, based on how I thought I did, and it basically came out to somewhere around a 72%, which is passing (70% is the lowest you can get), but I could have given myself points that they didn't give me. I'm not sure about the whole "performed musically" task. I have no idea what exactly their standards are for that.
This is the thing that probably has gotten my hopes unreasonably high, most likely just to crush them:
At marching band rehearsal, the same day, after my exam, Dr. Limb (one of the judges of the exam, whom I worked with on the piano stuff beforehand) came and sat down next to me and at a break said," Good job earlier." and she made a little pantomime with her hands of playing the pinao.
And I said "Oh, I guess so. Thanks."
Then she said, "Of course, I can't tell you your pass/fail result, but, Good Job."
(I could have sworn she put a little extra emphasis on the "good job" like she was trying to covertly tell me something. She kind of has a way of doing things like that sometimes.)
"Well, if anything it was better than last time."
"Definitely."
Ok, Dr. Limb isn't an awful mean spirited woman...
Do you think she would have told me I did a good job if I had failed? Wouldn't that be mean?
Or do you think she could have been preparing me for the blow I shall recieve on Tuesday by pumping up my ego a little bit before hand? Maybe she was giving me comfort early.
Either way...if I fail I will be miserable. It will be the second time. I feel like I'm so useless at all things. Even if I pass the exam it will have been by an extremely small margin.
I thought that although it was a lot better than last time, I still did horribly, and most likely failed.
I scored myself with the book, based on how I thought I did, and it basically came out to somewhere around a 72%, which is passing (70% is the lowest you can get), but I could have given myself points that they didn't give me. I'm not sure about the whole "performed musically" task. I have no idea what exactly their standards are for that.
This is the thing that probably has gotten my hopes unreasonably high, most likely just to crush them:
At marching band rehearsal, the same day, after my exam, Dr. Limb (one of the judges of the exam, whom I worked with on the piano stuff beforehand) came and sat down next to me and at a break said," Good job earlier." and she made a little pantomime with her hands of playing the pinao.
And I said "Oh, I guess so. Thanks."
Then she said, "Of course, I can't tell you your pass/fail result, but, Good Job."
(I could have sworn she put a little extra emphasis on the "good job" like she was trying to covertly tell me something. She kind of has a way of doing things like that sometimes.)
"Well, if anything it was better than last time."
"Definitely."
Ok, Dr. Limb isn't an awful mean spirited woman...
Do you think she would have told me I did a good job if I had failed? Wouldn't that be mean?
Or do you think she could have been preparing me for the blow I shall recieve on Tuesday by pumping up my ego a little bit before hand? Maybe she was giving me comfort early.
Either way...if I fail I will be miserable. It will be the second time. I feel like I'm so useless at all things. Even if I pass the exam it will have been by an extremely small margin.