lifes a bitch....
then you die...is pretty much my outlook on life right now. i dont understand people and their way of thinking. this isnt going to be some " oh my hearts broken post" b/c it's far from that...im more pissed off than i am heartbroken. People that put up the "good guy" front. amaze me. i mean i guess it is somewhat my fault for actually taking the time to force myself to believe it and trust him....what i dont understand is why you would put so much effort into making people believe one thing, then showing actions of someone completely different. like all that time and effort was just wasted...on something/someone that doesnt even exist! gah it just gets to me. just be yourself and dont waste life being someone you're not to try and impress someone....it gets old ....fast. hmm so yeah i move to gville in january..and i cant wait to get out of this insane town of OP...its full of drama and bullshit. going to a new place with new people and a new house with new surroundings will be the best thing for me right now. everything and everyone here reminds me of how things used to be and im so tired of living in my past..it only hurts and makes me wish things never changed...but they did. it seems like im running away from my problems, which in a sense i guess i am, but idk what else to do. they wont solve themselves...and im not strong enough to eliminate these people from my life.so i suck...so what...screw it.....
im stuck between a rock and a hard place. i hate being in the middle of situations and seeing both sides, but not being able to open my mouth for the sake of hurting someone. it sucks..but im a good friend...so nothings coming out of my mouth.
my parents have now given me a bed time. its bad enough i have a curfew at the age of 19...but now i have a bedtime as well. it's 11:30 on the weeknights....go ahead and laugh i think its a bit humorous myself...just another reason i cant wait to move away from this insanity..... no more bed times, no more curfews, no more "clean your room before you leave this house!", no more...nagging about all the bs in my life that i have done wrong. ugh i CAN NOT wait..
this post is full of bitterness...i didnt mean for it to be, but i guess whats in your heart comes out of your mouth. annnnnnd im out.peace bitches. <3 <3 <3
im stuck between a rock and a hard place. i hate being in the middle of situations and seeing both sides, but not being able to open my mouth for the sake of hurting someone. it sucks..but im a good friend...so nothings coming out of my mouth.
my parents have now given me a bed time. its bad enough i have a curfew at the age of 19...but now i have a bedtime as well. it's 11:30 on the weeknights....go ahead and laugh i think its a bit humorous myself...just another reason i cant wait to move away from this insanity..... no more bed times, no more curfews, no more "clean your room before you leave this house!", no more...nagging about all the bs in my life that i have done wrong. ugh i CAN NOT wait..
this post is full of bitterness...i didnt mean for it to be, but i guess whats in your heart comes out of your mouth. annnnnnd im out.peace bitches. <3 <3 <3