:'-(
So it's officially over... i got the last of my stuff out of logan's apartment today...
it's been a really emotional last couple of months. i had one final talk with him a few days ago and i went over to his place yesterday to get my stuff out and fucking ashley (his new gf)'s stuff was all over and it was just really upsetting and really hard for me to be there. and maybe this makes me a terrible person but out on his desk was a note from ashley and i read it and it just hurt so much. unfortunately i had forgotten a few big things so i went back today to get them.
i never wanted it to be like this. i cant even hang out w/ his friends anymore really even though i was good friends with them too because he's always there with ashley and i dont ever want to be around them when they're together. the thought of them being together makes me sick to my stomach. and i think what hurts the most is that he doesn't even care. he breaks my heart and hes the one who's happy with someone else while i'm still miserable.
we tried to make the whole being friends thing work but i don't think it can anymore. he told me that he would like to still be friends but it doesn't affect him the same way it affects me. but i'm just stuck in this void now where i don't know what to do with myself because i am just continuously getting hurt being around him knowing that he's with ashley and having him lie to me about her over and over again. but at the same time i am so miserable without him at all and i can't stop thinking about him and i do want to hang out with him because we have so much fun together even after we broke up. i guess only time will tell what will happen from now on...
it's been a really emotional last couple of months. i had one final talk with him a few days ago and i went over to his place yesterday to get my stuff out and fucking ashley (his new gf)'s stuff was all over and it was just really upsetting and really hard for me to be there. and maybe this makes me a terrible person but out on his desk was a note from ashley and i read it and it just hurt so much. unfortunately i had forgotten a few big things so i went back today to get them.
i never wanted it to be like this. i cant even hang out w/ his friends anymore really even though i was good friends with them too because he's always there with ashley and i dont ever want to be around them when they're together. the thought of them being together makes me sick to my stomach. and i think what hurts the most is that he doesn't even care. he breaks my heart and hes the one who's happy with someone else while i'm still miserable.
we tried to make the whole being friends thing work but i don't think it can anymore. he told me that he would like to still be friends but it doesn't affect him the same way it affects me. but i'm just stuck in this void now where i don't know what to do with myself because i am just continuously getting hurt being around him knowing that he's with ashley and having him lie to me about her over and over again. but at the same time i am so miserable without him at all and i can't stop thinking about him and i do want to hang out with him because we have so much fun together even after we broke up. i guess only time will tell what will happen from now on...