Jul 06, 2004 21:07
I havent updated in a while, idk if anyone even checks this anymore, but here we go...
Cause
Boredom's constant gaze in my direction finally prompted me to pack my bags and head to lexington. Too many bad memories and a set reputation that im not all together proud of. The infinite depression that was my life in paintsville revealed the short and pointless path that I was traveling. I was not moving forward in life, but revolving... revolving in the never ending circle of drugs and nothingness that has halted my progression for so long. I think perhaps, that this move is an act of desperation. A final attempt to turn my life around and start on the path to success. I can only hope that my best will be enough to pull through, for i am drained from my evil's consistency. If with this final attempt i can not overcome my skeletons then i fear for the stability of my life to come. Laziness is a disease.. and one that will not easily be overthrown. What is to become of me is still uncertain.
Effect
I have finally grounded my self in a place that i am for the moment satisfied with. My income has improved slightly as well. I am working at Louisville Forge, and for now, enjoying it. Also i am in the process of enrolling at Lexington Community College.. I will not be satisfied with my life here until this goes through. At this point i am in the "intro to transformation process" Meaning, my journey has began but nothing is certain yet. Things are a lot better now, but my depression is not lifted. I have not yet built the foundation upon success that i so long for. Hopefully the answers to my problems will present itself soon. As always, only time will tell.