Six Flags it is...
Well things for the convention fell through. I depended on Bobby to get us there, as you may know not the smartest thing to do. So I'm going to Six Flags with the gang. I'm going have barely enough to get in but I'm still going. For you all who are reading this I'll be there at 9 as planned, unless the plans have changed then please let me know.
Things are going from being bad to worse, to worse than that and so on. I talked to Buck and he doesn't even seem like he cares that he hurt me as bad as he did. He's living his life as he was and moving on. Why can't I do that? Oh wait, I know - I have a heart.
This is driving me crazy. I'm ready to scream at the top of my lungs and then go on a killing spree. I feel like my mind's bending as my heart's breaking and it sucks. There's nothing I can do to make myself feel better. I wake up, I think of him, I lie in bed thinking of him, when I'm not sleeping I think of him, when I'm eating I think of him, he's on my mind every second of everyday and I can't do it anymore. I've had a broken heart before, many of you know this, but for whatever reason this guy got to the pieces that never broke and smashed them into pieces. I can't even begin to fathom what would've happened had we met. Maybe I'm just more vunerable now that my heart's been broken three times already in less than 5 years. That may have something to do with it.
I'm at work. I might be transferring to another department - televisions. They have it pretty easy over there and get paid more, more hours there too. I haven't heard from Poland Springs so I'm not really depending on that anymore. Oh well. As Katey always says, "Such is life." I've always been a firm believe that everything happens for a reason and I'm going to wait and see what the reason is behind everything that's happened in the past week. Hell I'd settle for the reason on why things have been going the way they have for the past two days.
Oh and before I forget, Happy Friday the 13th. Hope everyone has fun today. Interesting fact, it's the Friday the 13th of the 666th year that Halloween originated. Pretty insane huh? The most feared day is on the most evil number on the month where evil spirits are supposed to stalk the earth on one day. Strange isn't it? Maybe something will happen this year...maybe not. We'll see I suppose.
With that, I'm off. TTFN
Things are going from being bad to worse, to worse than that and so on. I talked to Buck and he doesn't even seem like he cares that he hurt me as bad as he did. He's living his life as he was and moving on. Why can't I do that? Oh wait, I know - I have a heart.
This is driving me crazy. I'm ready to scream at the top of my lungs and then go on a killing spree. I feel like my mind's bending as my heart's breaking and it sucks. There's nothing I can do to make myself feel better. I wake up, I think of him, I lie in bed thinking of him, when I'm not sleeping I think of him, when I'm eating I think of him, he's on my mind every second of everyday and I can't do it anymore. I've had a broken heart before, many of you know this, but for whatever reason this guy got to the pieces that never broke and smashed them into pieces. I can't even begin to fathom what would've happened had we met. Maybe I'm just more vunerable now that my heart's been broken three times already in less than 5 years. That may have something to do with it.
I'm at work. I might be transferring to another department - televisions. They have it pretty easy over there and get paid more, more hours there too. I haven't heard from Poland Springs so I'm not really depending on that anymore. Oh well. As Katey always says, "Such is life." I've always been a firm believe that everything happens for a reason and I'm going to wait and see what the reason is behind everything that's happened in the past week. Hell I'd settle for the reason on why things have been going the way they have for the past two days.
Oh and before I forget, Happy Friday the 13th. Hope everyone has fun today. Interesting fact, it's the Friday the 13th of the 666th year that Halloween originated. Pretty insane huh? The most feared day is on the most evil number on the month where evil spirits are supposed to stalk the earth on one day. Strange isn't it? Maybe something will happen this year...maybe not. We'll see I suppose.
With that, I'm off. TTFN