FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!
I'm really angry, depressed, and agressivly anxious. Is that possible to be those 3 things without being clinicly insane? Well if you know the biggest shithead in the world, like me, it's very possible. Words, symbols, nothing, positively nothing can express how I feel. Well I think I just put it in words, so whatever. So you might all be wondering what brought on this streak of hideous anger/depression/agressive anxiousness well for most of you who were with me you know what this is about, but for those of you who don't here's the short n' skinny; basically I was friends, no best friends I thought the world of this guy, for 2 1/2 years. I considered him closer to me than some of my family and then because I bought him a $50 Christmas gift last year I'm in love with him and he never speaks to me again. Then after I feel like shit for doing absolutely nothing wrong but trying to be nice he tells my brother he was frends with me out of pity. DO YOU HEAR ME!? PITY, P-I-T-Y! Do you possibly have any idea how sad and angry I was? That most definetely cannot be described in words. And the worst part is everyone around me was just saying, "Oh get over it" or "It'll all work out." Well, it's been a year now and things have only gotten worst and seeing him tonight sparked something in me I haven't felt in awhile, strong sinister hatred. I really wanted him to drop where he stood. Now I realize that most of you reading this have heard this story before and are most likely sick and tired of hearing about it, well too fucking bad. I honestly don't care if you're tired of hearing about this or not, if you are do something else. I really can't talk anymore, I'm way too angry and hating the world and 90% of the population. The 10% only includes the people in the room I'm sitting in now and a few more out there. You all know who you are and I love you all.