haunted heart
when i look in the mirror now i hardly recognize my face. when did i get to be all angles and cheekbones and too blue eyes, with not a soft curve in sight? my hair is cropped short. i can't hide behind it anymore.
i'm marking somehow yet another birthday next week. and it will be another bittersweet one. better than last year anyway. not that i'm all that much better off- just different. maybe ive just accepted the way things are a little better.
ive realized that the events of the previous decade of my life have affected me more profoundly that i was willing to acknowledge. i will never be the same. the person i used to be, more or less, walked away. wandered off, disappeared.
with all that said, i am more or less ok, despite my scarceness from here. I will try to get some more entries posted, as dusty_chenille tells me, it would make for some entertaining reading.
i'm off to the spooky saturday thing at the kids school for now. yike. then i'm going to see that movie 'into the wild' tonight.
i'm marking somehow yet another birthday next week. and it will be another bittersweet one. better than last year anyway. not that i'm all that much better off- just different. maybe ive just accepted the way things are a little better.
ive realized that the events of the previous decade of my life have affected me more profoundly that i was willing to acknowledge. i will never be the same. the person i used to be, more or less, walked away. wandered off, disappeared.
with all that said, i am more or less ok, despite my scarceness from here. I will try to get some more entries posted, as dusty_chenille tells me, it would make for some entertaining reading.
i'm off to the spooky saturday thing at the kids school for now. yike. then i'm going to see that movie 'into the wild' tonight.