Being alive....being alive...Being Alive!!
Just got back from the student production of "Company", and it's official: I. Love. This. Musical. (really, is there any musical I don't love at one time or another? *thinks* Well.... "42nd Street". So there's at least one ^__^;;) It actually may have, if only temporarily, become my 3rd favorite musical behind "Little Shop" and "The Secret Garden".
First of all, the pause after 'Ladies Who Lunch'. The pause. Sondheim knew what he was doing, letting the song just trail off like that instead of having a definitive ending. I don't think anyone was breathing, and that's the best kind of not-applause you can have.
And OMG THE POT SCENE! It was funnier than it was on Broadway! F'rserious.
'Being Alive' made me cry. Again. Guh, every single song in this show hits the nail on the freakin' head. It makes me think and feel so much, I leave bursting with emotion and humming to myself and spinning around just because I have to do something. It's all so, so beautiful and true; all parts of relationships, the good, the bad, the ugly and the nondescript are all there, and that's what makes it beautiful. All the characters feel so much and so deeply, even if they don't realize it themselves.
And I identify with Bobby. I identify him in that weird not-quite-definable way I identify with a lot of characters. For whatever reason it's usually male characters, and it took me a long time to realize the distinction between "I'm attracted to this person" and "I could be this person" because I think it's a thin line. At least with me? Maybe I'm narcissistic ^__^;;; But *cough* getting off-track. Yeah, I identify with him. He's a watcher. He observes. Hell, the whole show is one big observation of himself and his friends and how he feels about all of it, something I am doing ALL the time. I observe, I think, I analyze, I wait. I have impulses, I even act on them occasionally, but they're not the natural order with me. The gears are almost always turning underneath, and they turn to the point where I wonder whether I've missed my chance for what I really wanted, after spending all this time trying to figure out what it is in the first place!
Huh. So maybe that's the connection.
"I'm ready..... I'm ready now!"
Of course, I could go on... But then I could always go on. :P