when it's all over, is it heaven or is it hell?
Before the Dawn. HP/RTTF fic. Please read! Especially if you are a former Racer. Cause you'd actually understand it. XD
And Ophelia, if you're out there, PLEASE get in touch with me somehow. Writing this made me realize how I haven't communicated with you in months. E-mail, LJ comment or IM. No cell phone, cause mine is back in the states. :P
Quizzes:
You are Brigitte Bardot
Naurally sensual and beautiful
You're an exotic beauty who turns heads everywhere
You've got a look that's one of a kind
What Famous Pinup Are You?
As Fleur, you are popular, pretty and on the whole friendly, but you sometimes relish on your popularity too much. You are also talented with skills in sporting areas.
I spose that's cool. I've been feeling rather Gryffy lately.
As for the upcoming meme, it surprises me how none of my friends who did it checked off the "I have tried marijuana" box. Maybe cause so many of my high school friends did it, but I just assumed it was something you were required to do, at some point. I mean, even I've done it.
(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)
✓ I miss somebody right now. (So very much.)
✓ I don't watch much TV these days.
✓ I own lots of books.
× I wear glasses or contact lenses. (Even though both my parents do.)
✓ I love to play video games.
✓ I've tried marijuana.
✓ I've watched porn movies.
× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
✓ I curse sometimes.
✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. (I think I have, anyway... it'd be a shame if no change, or at least discovery, occurred.)
× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
* * * * *
× I have broken someone's bones.
× I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
× I hate the rain.
✓ I'm paranoid at times. (But that doesn't mean they aren't really out to get me.)
× I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
× I need/want money right now.
✓ I love sushi.
✓ I talk really, really fast. (Sometimes.)
× I have fresh breath in the morning.
× I have long hair.
× I have lost money in Las Vegas.
✓ I have at least one sibling.
× I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
✓ I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
× I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
✓ I like the way that I look. (Most of the time.)
× I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
× I am usually pessimistic.
× I have a lot of mood swings.
✓ I think prostitution should be legalized.
× I slept with a roommate.
× I have a hidden talent. (Nothing hidden about it. :P)
× I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
✓ I have a lot of friends.
✓ I have pecked someone of the same sex.
× I enjoy talking on the phone.
× I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
✓ I love to shop and/or window shop. (Sometimes.)
✓ I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.
× I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
✓ I have a mobile phone. (Not currently, but yeah.)
× I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
✓ I've rejected someone before.
✓ I currently like/love someone. (<3 <3 <3)
× I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
✓ I want to have children in the future.
× I have changed a diaper before.
× I've called the cops on a friend before.
✓ I'm not allergic to anything. (That I know ot.)
✓ I have a lot to learn. (It is the unwise man who believes he knows everything.)
× I am shy around the opposite sex.
× I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
✓ I have at least 5 away messages saved. (And I haven't had this laptop very long, either.)
✓ I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
× I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
× I own the "South Park" movie.
× I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.
× I enjoy some country music.
✓ I would die for my best friends.
✓ I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.
× I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
✓ I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy. (Also cause you get to dress up.)
× I have dated a close friend's ex.
✓ I am happy at this moment.
× I'm obsessed with guys.
✓ Democrat.
× Republican.
× I don't even know what I am.
× I am punk rockish.
× I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
✓ I study for tests most of the time.
× I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
× I can work on a car.
× I love my job(s).
× I am comfortable with who I am right now.
× I have more than just my ears pierced.
✓ I walk barefoot wherever I can. (Sometimes.)
× I have jumped off a bridge. (No, but I have jumped out of a plane.)
× I love sea turtles.
× I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
✓ I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
✓ I am proficient on a musical instrument. (Voice,)
× I hate office jobs. (But I'd rather avoid them, thanks.)
✓ I went to college out of state.
× I am adopted.
× I am a pyro.
× I have thrown up from crying too much.
× I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
× I fall for the worst people.
✓ I adore bright colours.
✓ I usually like covers better than originals.
× I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.
✓ I can pick up things with my toes.
× I can't whistle.
✓ I have ridden/owned a horse.
✓ I still have every journal I've ever written in.
× I talk in my sleep. (Not that I know....)
× I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.
✓ I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
× I wear a toe ring.
× I have a tattoo.
× I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
× I am a caffeine junkie.
✓ I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
× If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
× I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
× I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.
✓ I'm an artist.
× I am ambidextrous.
× I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.
× If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.
× I have terrible teeth.
× I hate my toes.
✓ I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me. (Tagging? Pff.)
× I have more friends on the internet than in real life. (Never thought to count.)
× I have lived in either three different states or countries.
× I am extremely flexible. (Depends on who you're comparing me to.)
× I love hugs more than kisses.
× I want to own my own business.
× I smoke.
✓ I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
✓ Nobody has ever said I'm normal.
× Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then. (More like a flood.)
× I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
✓ I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.
✓ I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.
✓ I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
× I have played strip poker with someone else before.
× I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.
✓ I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
× I can't stand being alone.
✓ I have at least one obsession at any given time.
× I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
× I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.
× I'm a judgmental asshole.
× I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
✓ I have travelled on more than one continent. (Now I have, anyway :D)
× I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.
✓ I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am. (One of the things that needs changing... >_<)
× I am a Libertarian.
✓ I can speak more than one language. (Partially.)
× I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
✓ I would rather read than watch TV. (Sometimes.)
× I like reading fact more than fiction.
× I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
× I have no piercings.
× I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.
× I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.
× There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.
× I like most animals better than most people.
✓ I own a collection of retro games consoles.
× The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.
× I have hit someone with a dead fish. (lol.)
✓ I am compulsively honest.
× I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.
× I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
✓ I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex. (Kind of doesn't count, as I am a girl. But, flip it. Yeah.)
× I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.
× I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
× I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.
× I dislike milk.
✓ I obsessively wash my hands. (Compared to others, it seems.)
✓ I always carry something significant around with me.
× Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.
✓ I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
× Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.
× I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.
✓ I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
× I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.
× Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.
× I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
× I do not 'get' most comedy acts.
✓ I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.
× I don't like to chew gum.
× I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.
× I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car. (lol.)
× I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
✓ I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.
× I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.
✓ I love to sing.
× I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.
× I have a custom-built computer.
× I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.
× I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.
✓ I've gone skinny-dipping.
✓ I've performed in three plays. (And more!)
✓ I enjoy burritos.
✓ I'm Irish and loving it. (Partially.)
× I have a thing for redheads.
× I am a twin!
× Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.
× Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else.
× I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.
× I sleep more than 12 hours a day.
✓ I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.
× I need more time to myself.
× I wish I was more open-minded.
× I hope that I go really prematurely grey.
✓ I download songs from the internet.
× I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend. (lol again,)
✓ I say random things to freak people out. (And sometimes just cause I wanna.)
× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note.
× I love playing Truth or Dare.
× I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it.
✓ Music helps me remember that I am not alone.
✓ Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems.
× I think this survey is particularly long.
× I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones.
× I can only hate someone that I love.
× I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks.
And Ophelia, if you're out there, PLEASE get in touch with me somehow. Writing this made me realize how I haven't communicated with you in months. E-mail, LJ comment or IM. No cell phone, cause mine is back in the states. :P
Quizzes:
You are Brigitte Bardot
Naurally sensual and beautiful
You're an exotic beauty who turns heads everywhere
You've got a look that's one of a kind
What Famous Pinup Are You?
As Fleur, you are popular, pretty and on the whole friendly, but you sometimes relish on your popularity too much. You are also talented with skills in sporting areas.
I spose that's cool. I've been feeling rather Gryffy lately.
As for the upcoming meme, it surprises me how none of my friends who did it checked off the "I have tried marijuana" box. Maybe cause so many of my high school friends did it, but I just assumed it was something you were required to do, at some point. I mean, even I've done it.
(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)
✓ I miss somebody right now. (So very much.)
✓ I don't watch much TV these days.
✓ I own lots of books.
× I wear glasses or contact lenses. (Even though both my parents do.)
✓ I love to play video games.
✓ I've tried marijuana.
✓ I've watched porn movies.
× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
✓ I curse sometimes.
✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. (I think I have, anyway... it'd be a shame if no change, or at least discovery, occurred.)
× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
* * * * *
× I have broken someone's bones.
× I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
× I hate the rain.
✓ I'm paranoid at times. (But that doesn't mean they aren't really out to get me.)
× I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
× I need/want money right now.
✓ I love sushi.
✓ I talk really, really fast. (Sometimes.)
× I have fresh breath in the morning.
× I have long hair.
× I have lost money in Las Vegas.
✓ I have at least one sibling.
× I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
✓ I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
× I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
✓ I like the way that I look. (Most of the time.)
× I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
× I am usually pessimistic.
× I have a lot of mood swings.
✓ I think prostitution should be legalized.
× I slept with a roommate.
× I have a hidden talent. (Nothing hidden about it. :P)
× I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
✓ I have a lot of friends.
✓ I have pecked someone of the same sex.
× I enjoy talking on the phone.
× I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
✓ I love to shop and/or window shop. (Sometimes.)
✓ I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.
× I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
✓ I have a mobile phone. (Not currently, but yeah.)
× I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
✓ I've rejected someone before.
✓ I currently like/love someone. (<3 <3 <3)
× I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
✓ I want to have children in the future.
× I have changed a diaper before.
× I've called the cops on a friend before.
✓ I'm not allergic to anything. (That I know ot.)
✓ I have a lot to learn. (It is the unwise man who believes he knows everything.)
× I am shy around the opposite sex.
× I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
✓ I have at least 5 away messages saved. (And I haven't had this laptop very long, either.)
✓ I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
× I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
× I own the "South Park" movie.
× I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.
× I enjoy some country music.
✓ I would die for my best friends.
✓ I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.
× I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
✓ I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy. (Also cause you get to dress up.)
× I have dated a close friend's ex.
✓ I am happy at this moment.
× I'm obsessed with guys.
✓ Democrat.
× Republican.
× I don't even know what I am.
× I am punk rockish.
× I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
✓ I study for tests most of the time.
× I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
× I can work on a car.
× I love my job(s).
× I am comfortable with who I am right now.
× I have more than just my ears pierced.
✓ I walk barefoot wherever I can. (Sometimes.)
× I have jumped off a bridge. (No, but I have jumped out of a plane.)
× I love sea turtles.
× I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
✓ I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
✓ I am proficient on a musical instrument. (Voice,)
× I hate office jobs. (But I'd rather avoid them, thanks.)
✓ I went to college out of state.
× I am adopted.
× I am a pyro.
× I have thrown up from crying too much.
× I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
× I fall for the worst people.
✓ I adore bright colours.
✓ I usually like covers better than originals.
× I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.
✓ I can pick up things with my toes.
× I can't whistle.
✓ I have ridden/owned a horse.
✓ I still have every journal I've ever written in.
× I talk in my sleep. (Not that I know....)
× I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.
✓ I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
× I wear a toe ring.
× I have a tattoo.
× I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
× I am a caffeine junkie.
✓ I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
× If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
× I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
× I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.
✓ I'm an artist.
× I am ambidextrous.
× I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.
× If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.
× I have terrible teeth.
× I hate my toes.
✓ I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me. (Tagging? Pff.)
× I have more friends on the internet than in real life. (Never thought to count.)
× I have lived in either three different states or countries.
× I am extremely flexible. (Depends on who you're comparing me to.)
× I love hugs more than kisses.
× I want to own my own business.
× I smoke.
✓ I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
✓ Nobody has ever said I'm normal.
× Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then. (More like a flood.)
× I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
✓ I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.
✓ I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.
✓ I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
× I have played strip poker with someone else before.
× I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.
✓ I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
× I can't stand being alone.
✓ I have at least one obsession at any given time.
× I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
× I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.
× I'm a judgmental asshole.
× I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
✓ I have travelled on more than one continent. (Now I have, anyway :D)
× I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.
✓ I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am. (One of the things that needs changing... >_<)
× I am a Libertarian.
✓ I can speak more than one language. (Partially.)
× I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
✓ I would rather read than watch TV. (Sometimes.)
× I like reading fact more than fiction.
× I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
× I have no piercings.
× I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.
× I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.
× There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.
× I like most animals better than most people.
✓ I own a collection of retro games consoles.
× The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.
× I have hit someone with a dead fish. (lol.)
✓ I am compulsively honest.
× I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.
× I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
✓ I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex. (Kind of doesn't count, as I am a girl. But, flip it. Yeah.)
× I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.
× I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
× I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.
× I dislike milk.
✓ I obsessively wash my hands. (Compared to others, it seems.)
✓ I always carry something significant around with me.
× Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.
✓ I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
× Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.
× I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.
✓ I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
× I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.
× Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.
× I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
× I do not 'get' most comedy acts.
✓ I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.
× I don't like to chew gum.
× I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.
× I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car. (lol.)
× I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
✓ I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.
× I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.
✓ I love to sing.
× I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.
× I have a custom-built computer.
× I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.
× I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.
✓ I've gone skinny-dipping.
✓ I've performed in three plays. (And more!)
✓ I enjoy burritos.
✓ I'm Irish and loving it. (Partially.)
× I have a thing for redheads.
× I am a twin!
× Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.
× Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else.
× I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.
× I sleep more than 12 hours a day.
✓ I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.
× I need more time to myself.
× I wish I was more open-minded.
× I hope that I go really prematurely grey.
✓ I download songs from the internet.
× I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend. (lol again,)
✓ I say random things to freak people out. (And sometimes just cause I wanna.)
× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note.
× I love playing Truth or Dare.
× I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it.
✓ Music helps me remember that I am not alone.
✓ Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems.
× I think this survey is particularly long.
× I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones.
× I can only hate someone that I love.
× I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks.