"well my best side was your worst invention"
ahh sooooooo happy right now
had 3 great conversations with 3 awsome people tonight <3
i realized so much stuff
and started to wonder, why the hell did i even care?
wow, gotta say, it feels great to let go
hopefully this doesnt change by tomorrow
shit still sucks in my house. it seems like my family is falling apart. parents are still fighting and that is the one thing that got me the most upset, and somehow i always end up in the middle of their arguments. this always just put me in a really bad mood, so i started to take it out on other people. its weird, now that i think about it, its almost as if i was more scared to loose you as a friend than to be anything more than that, if that makes any sense. the funny part is, i dont think i really cared that much about you this year. i know that sounds mean and all, but its not like you would care that much one way or another. i just think i tried to hold on because i didnt want another part of my life to just fall apart. but whats the point of holding on when you know its not gonna work? beats me. and the thing i hated the most was being blown off without being given a chance. or maybe its the fact that its senior year, the last time ill prob ever see you. so its senior year, i should be having fun and enjoying every last minute of it because these seven months are gonna go by so extremely fast. at some times, i wish i could redo last year, but thats over and its time to move on. i just have to concentrate on this year and these next few months and not dwell on the past.
i guess ive been in a shitty mood for the past months, but after realizing a lot of things tonight, i think im able to get my life back on track now. maybe i just needed someone to talk to and i got that tonight. ill just have to leave what happens with my family in my house and not let my feelings about it follow me everywhere. wen i do that, it just gets me no where and i end up taking it out on people, which is NO good.
and yea so i can go on about this for so much longer but its what 11:51 now...maybe that means to start studying for my health trimester and plus im really tired. man, thinking gets tiring after a while but i think i finally have it all figured out,woop? i finally feel good about mostly everything in my life, so u try and ruin it, die! and i mean that in the nicest way possible*
nite*
xoxo christina
had 3 great conversations with 3 awsome people tonight <3
i realized so much stuff
and started to wonder, why the hell did i even care?
wow, gotta say, it feels great to let go
hopefully this doesnt change by tomorrow
shit still sucks in my house. it seems like my family is falling apart. parents are still fighting and that is the one thing that got me the most upset, and somehow i always end up in the middle of their arguments. this always just put me in a really bad mood, so i started to take it out on other people. its weird, now that i think about it, its almost as if i was more scared to loose you as a friend than to be anything more than that, if that makes any sense. the funny part is, i dont think i really cared that much about you this year. i know that sounds mean and all, but its not like you would care that much one way or another. i just think i tried to hold on because i didnt want another part of my life to just fall apart. but whats the point of holding on when you know its not gonna work? beats me. and the thing i hated the most was being blown off without being given a chance. or maybe its the fact that its senior year, the last time ill prob ever see you. so its senior year, i should be having fun and enjoying every last minute of it because these seven months are gonna go by so extremely fast. at some times, i wish i could redo last year, but thats over and its time to move on. i just have to concentrate on this year and these next few months and not dwell on the past.
i guess ive been in a shitty mood for the past months, but after realizing a lot of things tonight, i think im able to get my life back on track now. maybe i just needed someone to talk to and i got that tonight. ill just have to leave what happens with my family in my house and not let my feelings about it follow me everywhere. wen i do that, it just gets me no where and i end up taking it out on people, which is NO good.
and yea so i can go on about this for so much longer but its what 11:51 now...maybe that means to start studying for my health trimester and plus im really tired. man, thinking gets tiring after a while but i think i finally have it all figured out,woop? i finally feel good about mostly everything in my life, so u try and ruin it, die! and i mean that in the nicest way possible*
nite*
xoxo christina