Broken hearted forever??
I am so fuckin sick of ppl playing games with my head. I really dont enjoy it....y cant anyone be honest with me....even if its gonna hurt, it hurts a fuck lot more when u lie....trust me....bc i had to leave a bar 2nite hysterical crying bc i was a fool for thinking some guy actually gave a shit about me...i really care about him and im a dick for caring, im just gonna continuosly gonna get hurt by him. Apparently he didnt wanna relationship bc he wants to fuck around wit a shit load of girls. But im sick of the mixed signals. Yesterday i said if you cared u would come and see me and he fuckin came an di wanted to kiss him s obad but i was so scared. Im so intimidated by him. I dont wanna be vulnerable, but i already am. And i hate it. Ag was right, find someone who loves u more than u love them i guess, ur less likely to get hurt. But seriously...whats wrong with me....am i ugly? fat? stupid? What is it that other girls are so much betta than me??? What do i need to do to get ppl to care about me??I really just wanna crawl in the fetal position and cry forever, have the world swallow me up. This way i wouldnt have to deal with anyhting....ughhh what should i do....i need advice really bad!!!!