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[a_killing_kiss]

why does everything have to be taken away from me?
everything i love more the less
i dont get it
what did i do that was so bad anyways?
its not fair
its really not
when you love someone so much
maybe to much, more than they know
and then they might have to leave
but i guess you dont understand
what i feel like
&why im so upset and miserable over this
no one really understands
sure things might get better after awhile
but i dont want awhile, i want now.

sucks when you can smile and pretend its alright
sucks when you can try to focus on the good
but only see the bad, for once in your life
sucks when you are forced to leave someone
you truely love
again..
i dont get why it has to happen to me?

ever since i moved to florida
ive been in such a emo mood hah
it sucks really
just when i thought everything was looking up
bc of that o n e p e r s o n
and then they might even have to go
and your back where you started again, alone
&no one really cares
its the truth
not even that person
instead they seem excited but
still say how much they love you
& it hurts
i thought things would be different
maybe i fell to fast and to hard
now i just need to know your there
& i need someone to talk to
not just anyone someone who understands
but no one does

it sucks
when you love someone with all ur heart
and they arent there anymore
or wont be there anymore

maybe you think im a dramaqueen
and that i never really loved you
but i do, i really do
and its hard to admit that
knowing you might not be there soon
and ill be alone like i have been
so i just want to let you know
i love you
truely

i love the way you smile
i love the way you hold me
i love they way you kiss me
i love when i see you i automatically smile
i love the way you hug me
i love the way you hold my hand when we walk
i love the way you write me cute notes in class
i love when i come home and have a message from you
i love the way i want to be with you all the time
i love the way you tell me you love me
i love all your funny stories
i love the way you kiss my neck
i love the way you kiss my forehead before i leave
i love the way we cuddle
i love how we have to sneak off to see each other
i love your cockyness
i love the way you look at me
i love the way you walk by my class to see me
i love the way you want to be with me
i love the way you touch me
i love the way your always there for me
i love the way i feel safe with you
i love the way you tease me and call me names
i love the way you laugh at me
i love how your eyes sparkle
i love the way you look when your tired
i love the way you always make me laugh
i love the way you make me feel
i love everything about you
&i dont want it to be over
ever
because you mean more to me
than anyone ever has
and i'd do anything for you

dont leave me
cant you fight
&try to stay
of course not
because i expect to much