different
In less then 5 hours I will be on a plane bound for Texas, a place that has become familiar this past year. When I planned this trip to Tucson I knew I was going to have a blast with my friends, that I was going to have the fun that I had in the good old days. However it didn't take me long to see how wrong I was. Please don't misunderstand me, I had a lot of fun, but I discovered that the good old days are long gone. I saw everyone I wanted to see, but they were different. Almost all of my old memories were shattered this week, new ones gone to take their place. Some relationships were strengthend, while others that held strong for quite sometime whithered and reduced. So much change came as a slight shock to my system, but I suppose it is terribly selfish of me to think that life freezes and doesn't change when I leave. I felt so outside of everything, because so much had happened while I was gone. Was it a foolish idea to move away in the first place? Who knows? I like to think it wasen't, I got so much accomplished while I was there. I got a car, I got a career that I enjoy doing, certain friendships of mine to distance to show just how strong they were. I don't think any of those things would have happened if I hadn't of left. Is it a foolish idea to move back? Who knows, life has become awfully familiar in Denton, but I miss so many things about this place that I become tore up inside when I think about the choice. It might be foolish, but I've already chosen. I am moving back and nothing will stand in the way of that. God only knows what the future will bring me, but dammit it's my future and it's about time I took it. I apologize if I seem distant for te next few days or so, I have a lot to think about, a lot of planning to do.
-adam
-adam