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it has come to my attention that no one reads this anymore. except...
but that's ok. i will write on.
i wonder, what does it take for a person to change? change their way of thinking, their way of understanding, their way of being? obviously, the answers to these questions would differ greatly among people. but is there even one common thread among human beings? one thing that would immediately bring about change? i'm not thinking so much of a disaster forcing a change, but something smaller; something so minute that it maybe not even be noticed. by anyone. ever. i suppose that answers my question.
but, can people ever really change? certainly we all grow and learn, thus changing our perceptions somewhat, but after a certain age, a certain time, does this stop happening? no matter how much we may try to resist, do we all become stagnant and set in our ways? and at that point do we simply search for those who can live with us in our current state, or, do we learn from those who were not so content with us, and realize that maybe the way we've always done things is not always the best way to do things. i guess that's why i ask what it might take. i suppose, like life in general, it's all a matter of choice. a person can chose to change, or they can chose not to. this all requires a heightened state of self awareness, which unfortunately i think a large number of people greatly lack. i'm beginning to believe that the only way to be truly happy in this life is to accept that we all cannot simply go along on our merry little ways, with little regard to the people in our lives. people will inevitably react and respond differently to a decision or an action made, and in order to keep relationships with family, friends, boyfriends, girlfriends, whatever, concessions must be made in order to accommodate those other people. we all have a part in this. we all need to be aware of how our behaviour affects others. we all need to understand that it is not just the others who must change or concede, that we, ourselves, must too.
that being said, is there a point where this just cannot happen any longer? where two people just cannot concede to one another any more, unless risk losing themselves completely? yes, i suppose there is. but i also don't believe it's that simple. it's a whole host of factors that come together to make that decision. it may be that one person feels they have given in more than the other, and the other maybe feel the same about themselves. a middle ground cannot be made. battle after battle, the relationship breaks down, and neither person has the energy nor the desire to do what it takes to make it work. the hope is gone.
so, does love every really conquer all? i'd love to believe that, but right now, it really does seem hopeless. and i know it's over. we could not go on the way we were. and i do believe that in order to "change" we cannot be together, for what each of us needs the other to change, is something we need to have immediately. and because we cannot, we cannot. and who knows, we may realize sometime down the road that all along we were never right for each other; that we were blinded by passion. that we may never be right for each other, and so once again embark on the quest to find someone who is. but, what we had will never be forgotten. and i will never forget the first time you looked at me, because i saw right inside you. and that is something that should never be put out of mind.
but that's ok. i will write on.
i wonder, what does it take for a person to change? change their way of thinking, their way of understanding, their way of being? obviously, the answers to these questions would differ greatly among people. but is there even one common thread among human beings? one thing that would immediately bring about change? i'm not thinking so much of a disaster forcing a change, but something smaller; something so minute that it maybe not even be noticed. by anyone. ever. i suppose that answers my question.
but, can people ever really change? certainly we all grow and learn, thus changing our perceptions somewhat, but after a certain age, a certain time, does this stop happening? no matter how much we may try to resist, do we all become stagnant and set in our ways? and at that point do we simply search for those who can live with us in our current state, or, do we learn from those who were not so content with us, and realize that maybe the way we've always done things is not always the best way to do things. i guess that's why i ask what it might take. i suppose, like life in general, it's all a matter of choice. a person can chose to change, or they can chose not to. this all requires a heightened state of self awareness, which unfortunately i think a large number of people greatly lack. i'm beginning to believe that the only way to be truly happy in this life is to accept that we all cannot simply go along on our merry little ways, with little regard to the people in our lives. people will inevitably react and respond differently to a decision or an action made, and in order to keep relationships with family, friends, boyfriends, girlfriends, whatever, concessions must be made in order to accommodate those other people. we all have a part in this. we all need to be aware of how our behaviour affects others. we all need to understand that it is not just the others who must change or concede, that we, ourselves, must too.
that being said, is there a point where this just cannot happen any longer? where two people just cannot concede to one another any more, unless risk losing themselves completely? yes, i suppose there is. but i also don't believe it's that simple. it's a whole host of factors that come together to make that decision. it may be that one person feels they have given in more than the other, and the other maybe feel the same about themselves. a middle ground cannot be made. battle after battle, the relationship breaks down, and neither person has the energy nor the desire to do what it takes to make it work. the hope is gone.
so, does love every really conquer all? i'd love to believe that, but right now, it really does seem hopeless. and i know it's over. we could not go on the way we were. and i do believe that in order to "change" we cannot be together, for what each of us needs the other to change, is something we need to have immediately. and because we cannot, we cannot. and who knows, we may realize sometime down the road that all along we were never right for each other; that we were blinded by passion. that we may never be right for each other, and so once again embark on the quest to find someone who is. but, what we had will never be forgotten. and i will never forget the first time you looked at me, because i saw right inside you. and that is something that should never be put out of mind.