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Had a long talk with my mom when I came home from school today...mostly consisted of us talking about the stuff that's going on with my dad and me. I cried a lot...it sucked ass. Now that I think about it, I was yelling too...cause my mom would ask me these questions and then I would just scream out my response to everything that she asked cause I'm just so frustrated. She told me that she can see that I'm hurt and I need to talk to my dad. But I told her that I DO NOT want to talk to him cause it doesn't help any. Then she made me feel bad when she told me that it hurts her to see me so hurt and angry cause she loves us both so much. He's the one who has been the asshole, that means that if there is going to be any forgiveness, it's going to start with him apologizing to me for being such a jerk. Although I don't know if I even want him to apologize...becuase I don't really care if him and I are on good terms or not...I just want him to leave me alone.