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So its pretty much been a while since a wrote in this. i always tend to do that. like if you look in my memories or w/e, you can see significant gaps. it's never that i forgot about it or i dont care about it anymore, because i do. i just get lazy. well i didnt write in it in the summer because i didn't have internet but the times i did i just never wanted to write in it. i still kinda don't right now but i really feel i should. i feel like my lj is almost diying. at the same time, no one really still writes in their's consistantly like it used to. my friends page is always communities. oh well. its one of those things i better get used to with age.
Goddamnit im growing up. im like already having a life-crisis. chill/youthful times are like getting more and more scarce and it honestly scares me. anyone who knows me knows im just a big kid. just the thought of responsibilities of my own life and such is terrifying. there's not much you can do though. life goes, 1) born 2) live 3) die. i mean there's alot in between, but it's just finally hitting me that my life is progressing and it's scary to think about.
Sherry is a staple in my life and if there's anything i learned over the summer (which i should've know before) is that if we're really going to be together for the rest of our lives, like we'd like to, its important to realize that everything you do has its effects on the other person as well. i dont mind it at all, im just noting that as another thing ive come to realize. a year later and i love her more everyday. its just a great feeling to have such a positive influence in my life. she's supportive, understanding, caring, and just about the sweetest person youll ever meet in your entire life. im pretty sure she'd take a bullet for a fucking plant if she had to. i dont know if she realizes it but just little things like for example, i called her today to tell her i did well on my first two journalism papers (yeah i switched majors) and she was just like so goddamn extatic. i mean i was excited but after telling her i said to myself "you know what? yeah i DID do an awesome job!" speaking of which, she's coming to visit for a bit in october! she does shit to my self-esteem im sure God himself can't do (which is a lie because im sure he could but i say it for dramatic effect) i love her and she's the best thing to happen to my life since being born. thanks for a year, and for the rest of our lives.
im living with dennis leary again. this time on st stephens. pretty fly place. we got our own kitchen and bathroom. so far ive made, fetuccini alfredo, alot of sandwiches, easy mac, raviolis, oh and some sandwiches. leary and i have, i think, officially hit it off this year. we joke, laugh, watch tv, cook, and do hw. he's still quite the drinker but it makes for more interesting convos.
speaking of Boston, i love it, but i dont. i love it because its my city, its a city where i feel i belong and that i enjoy. there's alot to it to learn still but so far it's perfectly livable except for the cost of living. oi. i also love it because the sports rock. i hate it because i cant enjoy it all the way as i have no family or friends or sherry here. just one of those would do. i feel even worse because now sherry wants to move up here. like id love for her to but i know this isnt her city, where she wants to be and what she wants to do. we love eachother and im sure itll work out somehow.
baseball season was a bust. sox started off strong and blew it with injuries and shithead plays. astros? just a mess. inconsistant says it for the both of them. shame on them. football is starting off and then hockey, here's to the steelers and bruins, please make up for terrible baseball.
she just texted me. i just got warm and fuzzy inside.
there's more to my life im sure but not enough time to do it. its about 1045 PM EST and i have a class tomorrow in the morning. ive just about whats important in my thoughts right now. im happy with my life right now. happier than ive been in a while. i hope whoever reads this, family, friends, strangers, whoever enjoyed this and if not, piss off, you chose to read it.
Goddamnit im growing up. im like already having a life-crisis. chill/youthful times are like getting more and more scarce and it honestly scares me. anyone who knows me knows im just a big kid. just the thought of responsibilities of my own life and such is terrifying. there's not much you can do though. life goes, 1) born 2) live 3) die. i mean there's alot in between, but it's just finally hitting me that my life is progressing and it's scary to think about.
Sherry is a staple in my life and if there's anything i learned over the summer (which i should've know before) is that if we're really going to be together for the rest of our lives, like we'd like to, its important to realize that everything you do has its effects on the other person as well. i dont mind it at all, im just noting that as another thing ive come to realize. a year later and i love her more everyday. its just a great feeling to have such a positive influence in my life. she's supportive, understanding, caring, and just about the sweetest person youll ever meet in your entire life. im pretty sure she'd take a bullet for a fucking plant if she had to. i dont know if she realizes it but just little things like for example, i called her today to tell her i did well on my first two journalism papers (yeah i switched majors) and she was just like so goddamn extatic. i mean i was excited but after telling her i said to myself "you know what? yeah i DID do an awesome job!" speaking of which, she's coming to visit for a bit in october! she does shit to my self-esteem im sure God himself can't do (which is a lie because im sure he could but i say it for dramatic effect) i love her and she's the best thing to happen to my life since being born. thanks for a year, and for the rest of our lives.
im living with dennis leary again. this time on st stephens. pretty fly place. we got our own kitchen and bathroom. so far ive made, fetuccini alfredo, alot of sandwiches, easy mac, raviolis, oh and some sandwiches. leary and i have, i think, officially hit it off this year. we joke, laugh, watch tv, cook, and do hw. he's still quite the drinker but it makes for more interesting convos.
speaking of Boston, i love it, but i dont. i love it because its my city, its a city where i feel i belong and that i enjoy. there's alot to it to learn still but so far it's perfectly livable except for the cost of living. oi. i also love it because the sports rock. i hate it because i cant enjoy it all the way as i have no family or friends or sherry here. just one of those would do. i feel even worse because now sherry wants to move up here. like id love for her to but i know this isnt her city, where she wants to be and what she wants to do. we love eachother and im sure itll work out somehow.
baseball season was a bust. sox started off strong and blew it with injuries and shithead plays. astros? just a mess. inconsistant says it for the both of them. shame on them. football is starting off and then hockey, here's to the steelers and bruins, please make up for terrible baseball.
she just texted me. i just got warm and fuzzy inside.
there's more to my life im sure but not enough time to do it. its about 1045 PM EST and i have a class tomorrow in the morning. ive just about whats important in my thoughts right now. im happy with my life right now. happier than ive been in a while. i hope whoever reads this, family, friends, strangers, whoever enjoyed this and if not, piss off, you chose to read it.