Married?!
So I had the strangest dream last night, and I started to type this earlier today when I woke up but didn't have time and I was still trying to make sense of it...you have no idea how relieved I was when I woke up this morning to find out it really was all in my head...such a creepy dream...
This is what I remember...
Here I am getting out of a white car, a car I can't really remember getting in to. I look down at myself and I wonder why in the world I'm wearing a dress to a picnic, but as I'm looking around at this gorgeous park I'm wondering if maybe this is something of a "garden party" something more sophisiticated then a mere picnic. I really feel like I'm searching for someone, but for some reason I can't place who it is I'm looking for, much to my surprise there is no one around, no one at all. I start wander ahead thinking maybe down the hill some I'll see a pavillion or something of the sort, at least people. I start to follow a trail and I kind end up following this garden maze and when I get to the middle I seemed to have finally found who it is I'm looking for. But I was so confused, it was kind of like looking in on myself and I kept asking myself what in the world was I thinking as I'm running to some guy, and for the life of me I can't remember who he was. So there I am so excited to find him and I practically leap in to his arms and he kisses me and out of no where tells me that he needs to ask me something before we can go to the celebration. Again I begin to wonder why I'm here and what in the world we're celebrating...well next thing I know he's on one knee (I know this sounds corny but bear with me it was just a dream) and he's asking me to marry him and I of course say yes right away, he puts some ring on my finger and picks me up and spins me around while he's hugging me. Meanwhile I still feel like I'm watching this whole thing rather then experiencing it if that makes sense. And then we start running out of the garden and through the grass and find a group of people, an odd array of people I may add all clapping and they all have glasses and they're all shouting, "congratulations, she must have said yes!" And I just remember feeling so happy and I felt like I was floating and I saw the weirdest groupings of people. Everyone was there, like everyone. Erin, Kate, Kate, Sam, Amy, Jenn, Krystal, Mike, Richie, weird... people from work like Russ, Chris, Ryan and little Jen, Bonnie and Daphne and Betty, Heather...not to mention all my family, grandparents, parents, Ashley and Drew, Jesse...I mean so many people, such an odd array. But everyone was grabbing me and hugging me and I for some reason this guy that I was apparently engaged to was so tall, I remember him being so tall. Anyway it just became apparent that obviously I was in the middle of a set up...so that all just seems like yay! Dream come true kind of dream, every girl dreams of the perfect engagement, but let me assure you that is far from what I've ever dreamed of or pictured. So here is where it gets really weird. Out of no where my mom and who I presume to be his mom come running at me, rushing me off telling me that the bride needs to get ready and while I'm wearing a pretty dress, "red just won't suit for a bride, you have to get married in white..." I'm so utterly confused both now and in my dream when this transition took place...because there wasn't much of a transition at all. They had my entire wedding planned out and before I really knew what was going on I was standing in a church that just happened to be strategically close to the park we were in and I was getting ready to walk down the aisle of a wedding that was completely arranged behind my back. And I remember thinking in my dream what if I had said no...so here I am and I'm walking down an aisle on the same day I was proposed to and everyone is so sure that they've planned this wedding exactly how I wanted it and I just kept thinking "what have I got myself in to?" The wedding was beautifully planned, completely traditional, gorgeous but it just didn't feel right. The only thing that really sticks out is that my bridesmaids were wearing the most beautiful shade of red, totally part of my ideal wedding. So I'm still going with this and I'm standing up there about to recite my vows and say the whole I do bit when next thing I know I'm definately saying, "I don't." And I just turn around and run back up the aisle, well here comes Mr.Wonderful (god I wish I could remember who it was) and he's asking me what's wrong and I'm just so stunned and I'm telling him that it's all unbelievable and that I really want to marry him and that I love him but it's got to be in my own time and I want to plan my own wedding and I want things to be ours and not somebody else's...and I don't know but we have this long heart to heart and we call off this wedding thing, and I clearly remember Kate standing up (Kate Middleton this is...) and saying "I told you she'd run, I knew she'd leave someone at the alter before she actually tied the knot!" And I remember all I could do was laugh and everyone was laughing and it seemed that no one cared. And then I don't really remember a transition here either but the next clear thing I remember in the dream was just snuggling in to bed with this guy telling me everything was going to be alright and then I woke up, like in real life and I was just so terrified that I might actually be waking up next to someone.
I don't know maybe that doesn't seem like a creepy dream to someone else, but just being thrown in to a wedding that was completely planned for me just scared the shit out of me and it really freaked me out. I mean I know I bitch about being alone, but I'm no where near a place in my life that I feel wedding dreams should be popping in my head...so creepy and weird...oy...I'm sure none of my synopsis makes any sense, but I tried to remember all I could, for the life of me I can't remember who in the world the guy was, but I remember the most random people being there, why can't I remember the one thing I want to?? So weird...
Anyway that is all...just wanted to get that out and considering it is 2:41 am I didn't think anyone would be appreciating a phone call right now to recap that...ha time to wrap it up and get my butt to bed...sweet dreams tonight? I hope...
*melissa
This is what I remember...
Here I am getting out of a white car, a car I can't really remember getting in to. I look down at myself and I wonder why in the world I'm wearing a dress to a picnic, but as I'm looking around at this gorgeous park I'm wondering if maybe this is something of a "garden party" something more sophisiticated then a mere picnic. I really feel like I'm searching for someone, but for some reason I can't place who it is I'm looking for, much to my surprise there is no one around, no one at all. I start wander ahead thinking maybe down the hill some I'll see a pavillion or something of the sort, at least people. I start to follow a trail and I kind end up following this garden maze and when I get to the middle I seemed to have finally found who it is I'm looking for. But I was so confused, it was kind of like looking in on myself and I kept asking myself what in the world was I thinking as I'm running to some guy, and for the life of me I can't remember who he was. So there I am so excited to find him and I practically leap in to his arms and he kisses me and out of no where tells me that he needs to ask me something before we can go to the celebration. Again I begin to wonder why I'm here and what in the world we're celebrating...well next thing I know he's on one knee (I know this sounds corny but bear with me it was just a dream) and he's asking me to marry him and I of course say yes right away, he puts some ring on my finger and picks me up and spins me around while he's hugging me. Meanwhile I still feel like I'm watching this whole thing rather then experiencing it if that makes sense. And then we start running out of the garden and through the grass and find a group of people, an odd array of people I may add all clapping and they all have glasses and they're all shouting, "congratulations, she must have said yes!" And I just remember feeling so happy and I felt like I was floating and I saw the weirdest groupings of people. Everyone was there, like everyone. Erin, Kate, Kate, Sam, Amy, Jenn, Krystal, Mike, Richie, weird... people from work like Russ, Chris, Ryan and little Jen, Bonnie and Daphne and Betty, Heather...not to mention all my family, grandparents, parents, Ashley and Drew, Jesse...I mean so many people, such an odd array. But everyone was grabbing me and hugging me and I for some reason this guy that I was apparently engaged to was so tall, I remember him being so tall. Anyway it just became apparent that obviously I was in the middle of a set up...so that all just seems like yay! Dream come true kind of dream, every girl dreams of the perfect engagement, but let me assure you that is far from what I've ever dreamed of or pictured. So here is where it gets really weird. Out of no where my mom and who I presume to be his mom come running at me, rushing me off telling me that the bride needs to get ready and while I'm wearing a pretty dress, "red just won't suit for a bride, you have to get married in white..." I'm so utterly confused both now and in my dream when this transition took place...because there wasn't much of a transition at all. They had my entire wedding planned out and before I really knew what was going on I was standing in a church that just happened to be strategically close to the park we were in and I was getting ready to walk down the aisle of a wedding that was completely arranged behind my back. And I remember thinking in my dream what if I had said no...so here I am and I'm walking down an aisle on the same day I was proposed to and everyone is so sure that they've planned this wedding exactly how I wanted it and I just kept thinking "what have I got myself in to?" The wedding was beautifully planned, completely traditional, gorgeous but it just didn't feel right. The only thing that really sticks out is that my bridesmaids were wearing the most beautiful shade of red, totally part of my ideal wedding. So I'm still going with this and I'm standing up there about to recite my vows and say the whole I do bit when next thing I know I'm definately saying, "I don't." And I just turn around and run back up the aisle, well here comes Mr.Wonderful (god I wish I could remember who it was) and he's asking me what's wrong and I'm just so stunned and I'm telling him that it's all unbelievable and that I really want to marry him and that I love him but it's got to be in my own time and I want to plan my own wedding and I want things to be ours and not somebody else's...and I don't know but we have this long heart to heart and we call off this wedding thing, and I clearly remember Kate standing up (Kate Middleton this is...) and saying "I told you she'd run, I knew she'd leave someone at the alter before she actually tied the knot!" And I remember all I could do was laugh and everyone was laughing and it seemed that no one cared. And then I don't really remember a transition here either but the next clear thing I remember in the dream was just snuggling in to bed with this guy telling me everything was going to be alright and then I woke up, like in real life and I was just so terrified that I might actually be waking up next to someone.
I don't know maybe that doesn't seem like a creepy dream to someone else, but just being thrown in to a wedding that was completely planned for me just scared the shit out of me and it really freaked me out. I mean I know I bitch about being alone, but I'm no where near a place in my life that I feel wedding dreams should be popping in my head...so creepy and weird...oy...I'm sure none of my synopsis makes any sense, but I tried to remember all I could, for the life of me I can't remember who in the world the guy was, but I remember the most random people being there, why can't I remember the one thing I want to?? So weird...
Anyway that is all...just wanted to get that out and considering it is 2:41 am I didn't think anyone would be appreciating a phone call right now to recap that...ha time to wrap it up and get my butt to bed...sweet dreams tonight? I hope...
*melissa