I hadn't really thought of it.
In the last couple of years I had compiled a list of attributes that I found to be necessary for me to find a guy not only attractive but worthy of dating.
With no preference of real hair color or eye color (though leaning towards more of dark hair and light eyes) I finally voiced part of my list to a guy friend somewhat in jest.
"plaid-wearing, beard-baring, guitar-strumming boy wonder of my dreams." some of the other attributes i look for are a height over 6', tattoos, a very direct moral compass, big heart, kind eyes and a knack for most things ridiculous... and you've got him. The guy for whom I search my daily travels hoping to meet.
The thing is, when I said plaid-wearing, beard-baring, guitar-strumming boy wonder of my dreams to previously mentioned guy friend somewhat in jest, he responded with, "it sounds like you just described me, just sayin'". And, as I went searching my head for the rest of the list, wouldn't you fucking believe he fits the rest of that as well?
And given recent events, my rationale is hard at work to keep this from becoming more than what it is because I know I don't stand a chance being anything he could ever want.