Caught In The Milky Way
I expect more out of people when I intend to give little as possible.
I want to be with someone but I know that I'm not mentally ready for a relationship, one that I think has infinite possibilities... I'm so scared of that state of mind still. So I'm sitting, and waiting. Magically I expect this person to wait with me and not do the things I'm doing because of my own insecurities. So my jealousy explodes when I don't even if it should...Not that jealousy should ever play a role in anything ever.
Ugh.
Alright, done with the dumb, emotional crap for now.
I'm in an excellent mood. Possibly because no one is home? There was actually food in the fridge the afternoon, I'm almost half way down with laundry, I'm talking to friends, texting Logan alil bit, and I'm not sweating.
Huzzaah!!
It managed to get even warmer today. It feels nice just having the windows open.
Last night, Kephani had a bon fire. There was Suzie, Aaron, Steve, Roo, Brittany, and her boo, and Murdock...It was really fun and really calm...Then really cold.
BUT, we did get s'mores after bitching about them for hours, all of us. SO good, but we never got margaritas and ALL the other things that came up in conversation that sounded extremely delish.
Balls, I have too much black stuff to fold.
I want to be with someone but I know that I'm not mentally ready for a relationship, one that I think has infinite possibilities... I'm so scared of that state of mind still. So I'm sitting, and waiting. Magically I expect this person to wait with me and not do the things I'm doing because of my own insecurities. So my jealousy explodes when I don't even if it should...Not that jealousy should ever play a role in anything ever.
Ugh.
Alright, done with the dumb, emotional crap for now.
I'm in an excellent mood. Possibly because no one is home? There was actually food in the fridge the afternoon, I'm almost half way down with laundry, I'm talking to friends, texting Logan alil bit, and I'm not sweating.
Huzzaah!!
It managed to get even warmer today. It feels nice just having the windows open.
Last night, Kephani had a bon fire. There was Suzie, Aaron, Steve, Roo, Brittany, and her boo, and Murdock...It was really fun and really calm...Then really cold.
BUT, we did get s'mores after bitching about them for hours, all of us. SO good, but we never got margaritas and ALL the other things that came up in conversation that sounded extremely delish.
Balls, I have too much black stuff to fold.