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seroiusly, what a pointless life i lead.
thats not even supposed to sound self-deprecating or sad, cuz im not sad, im just sick of this. (i really hope you dont read this and think im all depressed and whiny...im kinda depressed, but this is mainly just lashing out at the shear meaningless of my current situation).
heres a rundow of a typical day or two day perioud in my life...
7:30am...wake up for school
8:30am-10 (mon/wed)...school
8:30am- 630 (tue/thur...school
11- 6:30pm (mon/wed)...work
speratically during the day (everyday)...get excited about something, usually a new job prospect, or a new car as of late...only to have it turn into yet another disappointment.
10ish pm...sleep til the next day.
and i realize that may be pretty routine, but seriously, im at college, supposedly making myself better for the future, but the only things im learning are as follows...
1- how not go run a sandwich shoppe in a bustling downtown area
2- how not to teach classes
3- how not to get jobs you like
4- (most of the time) how not to get jobs at all
its stupid. theres nothing here i enjoy.
and before i continue, i realize all of you are sick of hearing this crap over and over again, but i could really care less, i do what i want.
there was/is one good thing about today that i can share. i woke up at 8:30am with no alarm assistance...thats right, i woke up because i was just not tired anymore!!! i dont remember the last time thats happened. it could, very possibly, have alot to do with the fact that i went to sleep at 8pm last night, but when all you have to do, most days, is sleep to pass the time so you dont kill yourself, that becomes your options.
this is long, eh? annnnd pointless, you say?
correct.
oh well.
i had to vent.
i hate grand rapids.
thats not even supposed to sound self-deprecating or sad, cuz im not sad, im just sick of this. (i really hope you dont read this and think im all depressed and whiny...im kinda depressed, but this is mainly just lashing out at the shear meaningless of my current situation).
heres a rundow of a typical day or two day perioud in my life...
7:30am...wake up for school
8:30am-10 (mon/wed)...school
8:30am- 630 (tue/thur...school
11- 6:30pm (mon/wed)...work
speratically during the day (everyday)...get excited about something, usually a new job prospect, or a new car as of late...only to have it turn into yet another disappointment.
10ish pm...sleep til the next day.
and i realize that may be pretty routine, but seriously, im at college, supposedly making myself better for the future, but the only things im learning are as follows...
1- how not go run a sandwich shoppe in a bustling downtown area
2- how not to teach classes
3- how not to get jobs you like
4- (most of the time) how not to get jobs at all
its stupid. theres nothing here i enjoy.
and before i continue, i realize all of you are sick of hearing this crap over and over again, but i could really care less, i do what i want.
there was/is one good thing about today that i can share. i woke up at 8:30am with no alarm assistance...thats right, i woke up because i was just not tired anymore!!! i dont remember the last time thats happened. it could, very possibly, have alot to do with the fact that i went to sleep at 8pm last night, but when all you have to do, most days, is sleep to pass the time so you dont kill yourself, that becomes your options.
this is long, eh? annnnd pointless, you say?
correct.
oh well.
i had to vent.
i hate grand rapids.