IM back
Im back.....on livejournal, im sitting here and wondering whether im really so bored as to pick up something i havent kept up with for a year. Im pickin up my tux for prom in an hour. I guess the best thing to do would be to sum up the past year.
-i have a car
-still cant sleep
-dads leaving, and im kicked out
-attempts to start an awesome gang have been successful, were called the S.P.Q.R
-my gang sucks now, im serious if i get any more crap im defecting
-i love meggie, more than she knows, cuz im writing about her and shes prolly never even gonna see this. unless i put this in my profile on aim, which im considering but havent decided yet(ok, random question: am i so indecisive that i have to sit here and argue to myself about the pro's and cons of whether or not to put this on my profile on aim. I guess its more of a question of whether i really want people to know what im thinking, should i put my opinions of my life out there and let people know what goes on in my life, or keep them guessing and go with whatever they tell me, either way i dont see how it matters because as far as even i can remember, my livejournal was never really read by anyone, and not even lauren has one.) Yeah i think that i will put it back on my profile. although i am gonna block it so that if they beg ill add them as a friend, this will eliminate the people who really dont give a shit and let people in who really wanna know what im thinking, brilliance....yeah...ive lost it.
-but yeah i love meggie times 10 billion
-mom seems to think the only way to get to know me is spying on me and searching my room...i guess asking would just be too simple
-I am the next joseph stalin, except ill be more of a badass
-im fustrated with my mother, because she assumes so much about me, and has such a closed mind about things, yes i carry a knife with me(not for killing people), yes i wear bandanas(to keep my hair back and cuz there comfortable), metal seems to calm my nerves, yes i do my homework when shes not home, no im not high right now, leather jackets are just my look, i like to wear camo and i dont know why, saying that i have a gang...dosent mean its in the traditional sense, philosiphy and thinking deeply are not why im doing bad in school, dad leaving does bother me( i dont know why) maybe because hes my dad or something, just because i dont have faith in the future does not mean i give up on it, if she didnt want me to have a big knife she shouldent have taken all my small ones, and my buck knife cuz i loved that thing, no i dont do drugs anymore and i really have cut back on the drinking. But yeah, i tell her all this and she dosent belive me, i dont even think she would belive me if she read this because she has this little vision about how things are, and if it dosent fit her criteria, then its not true. Its whatever tho, i want my swords from my dad tho so i can show her a difference between what a weapon is and what a tool is so she can finally learn the difference. I could kill someone with tons of stuff laying around my house, i dont need a knife to do that, and besides there are way more efficient and anonymus ways of doing it. I mean stabbing someone...what a waste of energy and time
-still like anime
-stopped most of my bad habits
-going to AACC next year
-im getting tired of doing this, so this will be the last one on the list; its whatever, peace
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-i have a car
-still cant sleep
-dads leaving, and im kicked out
-attempts to start an awesome gang have been successful, were called the S.P.Q.R
-my gang sucks now, im serious if i get any more crap im defecting
-i love meggie, more than she knows, cuz im writing about her and shes prolly never even gonna see this. unless i put this in my profile on aim, which im considering but havent decided yet(ok, random question: am i so indecisive that i have to sit here and argue to myself about the pro's and cons of whether or not to put this on my profile on aim. I guess its more of a question of whether i really want people to know what im thinking, should i put my opinions of my life out there and let people know what goes on in my life, or keep them guessing and go with whatever they tell me, either way i dont see how it matters because as far as even i can remember, my livejournal was never really read by anyone, and not even lauren has one.) Yeah i think that i will put it back on my profile. although i am gonna block it so that if they beg ill add them as a friend, this will eliminate the people who really dont give a shit and let people in who really wanna know what im thinking, brilliance....yeah...ive lost it.
-but yeah i love meggie times 10 billion
-mom seems to think the only way to get to know me is spying on me and searching my room...i guess asking would just be too simple
-I am the next joseph stalin, except ill be more of a badass
-im fustrated with my mother, because she assumes so much about me, and has such a closed mind about things, yes i carry a knife with me(not for killing people), yes i wear bandanas(to keep my hair back and cuz there comfortable), metal seems to calm my nerves, yes i do my homework when shes not home, no im not high right now, leather jackets are just my look, i like to wear camo and i dont know why, saying that i have a gang...dosent mean its in the traditional sense, philosiphy and thinking deeply are not why im doing bad in school, dad leaving does bother me( i dont know why) maybe because hes my dad or something, just because i dont have faith in the future does not mean i give up on it, if she didnt want me to have a big knife she shouldent have taken all my small ones, and my buck knife cuz i loved that thing, no i dont do drugs anymore and i really have cut back on the drinking. But yeah, i tell her all this and she dosent belive me, i dont even think she would belive me if she read this because she has this little vision about how things are, and if it dosent fit her criteria, then its not true. Its whatever tho, i want my swords from my dad tho so i can show her a difference between what a weapon is and what a tool is so she can finally learn the difference. I could kill someone with tons of stuff laying around my house, i dont need a knife to do that, and besides there are way more efficient and anonymus ways of doing it. I mean stabbing someone...what a waste of energy and time
-still like anime
-stopped most of my bad habits
-going to AACC next year
-im getting tired of doing this, so this will be the last one on the list; its whatever, peace
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