WTF?!?

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I got uo this morning at like 5, cause I still had to drive back out to school from my dad's house (ok, be driven back from) and so I got to school obnoxiuosly early. I like it though, it's like a calm before a storm when no one else is really there. I sat and did some homework by my locker until 7 rolled around when I walked downstairs to meet Andy at his locker. He was argueing with Emily about something and she stormed off. I asked him what happened and he said that he'd gone to visit some of his friends from his old school and they said that Andy was Andy-gay or Andy-straight, Andy was Andy. Emily said Andy was only Andy-gay. I told him that it didn't matter to me, he could want to fuck cows and it wouldn't matter to me. I figured they were just talking about how much of a person their sexuality accounted for. Then he tells me that he wants to undergo therapy to become straight. I stopped walking and just kind of stood there. I honestly can't process this. He threw me for a loop, alright. I just don't understand why. I asked him and he said "I don't want to be gay." I just kind of nodded and found it was hard to close my mouth. I just talked to him on Friday. We had a a big long conversation and he was fine, fine and normal and gayer than Lance Bass's myspace. I just don't get it. I mean, I have to support him, he's my best friend, but I just don't understand. I don't know what we'll talk about. I think two thirds of our conversations revolve around hot guys and Anthony Rapp. I had no cue this was coming. He had to have known, he couldn't of just woken up one morning and gone "Huh, I think I want to be straight." Could he? I don't even know. When we talked on Friday, we talked about something has seemed off lately. We hadn't been talking like we used to and there was just like this wall. I'd noticied it awhile ago but I was too afraid to say anything in case I was just paranoid but he actually brought it up. I don't know what that has to do with anything but I thought it was interesting. It's kind of creepy. It's almost like a crazy thought on a lonely night came true.

If anyone has any advice, please share. I think my mind's gonna explode soon.