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It's hard to find time to write more than a few lines because we're always so busy. Big fans of the show have gotten a few taste of what we go through during a regular week, so they know this. Now that it's down to four, well, it's even worse than it was. Not the work. Just all of it. The nerves, mostly.
I heard a lot of cheering go up in the headlines when Scott was sent home. I wasn't cheering. Not because I have a strong feeling in the pit of my stomach that I'm next, but because he was a nice guy. He was a good guy and nobody really seemed to realize it only because they felt he shouldn't have outlasted a few of the other singers in the show. It's not my place to say whether or not he should, or shouldn't have. I don't cast the votes. They call him a girlfriend-beater because he made a mistake years ago in which that the circumstances aren't known. There's no excuse for that, I know. But I don't throw stones at people that make mistakes in their lives, especially when they've come a long way since. I wouldn't want him to label me as something I've done wrong when I've overcome it. We're all human.
I'll miss Scott. He went through the same sort of media bashing that I've been through for remaining on the show longer than people like Nadia, Anwar, and Constantine. You know, I miss all of those people too. Nadia had an old-fashioned spark that you just don't see anymore unless you break out the records from long ago. Anwar was all-around great energy and we lost some of that when he left, the positivity, he was easy to go to when the show was getting you down. And the effects of Constantine not being in the show were felt too, because he was so obviously a favorite. Not only by the fans, but a favorite to us too. He's a pro in his own right, he owns the stage. The judges may not have always felt it, but he did. We were all rooting for him.
I may not be as good at all of the aspects of this show as those three. Maybe Scott wasn't either. But no matter what your opinion is about him, or I, or how people think the show runs behind the scenes -- we both have done our best on the show. We're both still people. I found a friend in him because we were cast into the same boat, the media thought we should have gone long ago, but we were trying hard and were thankful to still be there.
I've been in the bottom three a bunch. If you watch, this is no secret. This last time was my birthday. Two days ago was my birthday. Still, when I was sent to the couch and was trying to tell Scott that we weren't safe, I thought I had a chance to still be gone. Relief washed over me when Ryan told me I was safe. For one more week.
Next week may be my final. If it is, it is. Top 4 isn't bad at all. Even if there's nothing for me in music after this show, I can go back home knowing that I did pretty darn good getting as far as I did. I feel like I'm writing my good-bye post already, haha. I haven't given up, I'm still going to try my best for Tuesday's show. But if I do go, I hope the fans I do have know that I did the best I knew how to do.
I don't really know what else to say, so. I like the Backstreet Boys.
I heard a lot of cheering go up in the headlines when Scott was sent home. I wasn't cheering. Not because I have a strong feeling in the pit of my stomach that I'm next, but because he was a nice guy. He was a good guy and nobody really seemed to realize it only because they felt he shouldn't have outlasted a few of the other singers in the show. It's not my place to say whether or not he should, or shouldn't have. I don't cast the votes. They call him a girlfriend-beater because he made a mistake years ago in which that the circumstances aren't known. There's no excuse for that, I know. But I don't throw stones at people that make mistakes in their lives, especially when they've come a long way since. I wouldn't want him to label me as something I've done wrong when I've overcome it. We're all human.
I'll miss Scott. He went through the same sort of media bashing that I've been through for remaining on the show longer than people like Nadia, Anwar, and Constantine. You know, I miss all of those people too. Nadia had an old-fashioned spark that you just don't see anymore unless you break out the records from long ago. Anwar was all-around great energy and we lost some of that when he left, the positivity, he was easy to go to when the show was getting you down. And the effects of Constantine not being in the show were felt too, because he was so obviously a favorite. Not only by the fans, but a favorite to us too. He's a pro in his own right, he owns the stage. The judges may not have always felt it, but he did. We were all rooting for him.
I may not be as good at all of the aspects of this show as those three. Maybe Scott wasn't either. But no matter what your opinion is about him, or I, or how people think the show runs behind the scenes -- we both have done our best on the show. We're both still people. I found a friend in him because we were cast into the same boat, the media thought we should have gone long ago, but we were trying hard and were thankful to still be there.
I've been in the bottom three a bunch. If you watch, this is no secret. This last time was my birthday. Two days ago was my birthday. Still, when I was sent to the couch and was trying to tell Scott that we weren't safe, I thought I had a chance to still be gone. Relief washed over me when Ryan told me I was safe. For one more week.
Next week may be my final. If it is, it is. Top 4 isn't bad at all. Even if there's nothing for me in music after this show, I can go back home knowing that I did pretty darn good getting as far as I did. I feel like I'm writing my good-bye post already, haha. I haven't given up, I'm still going to try my best for Tuesday's show. But if I do go, I hope the fans I do have know that I did the best I knew how to do.
I don't really know what else to say, so. I like the Backstreet Boys.