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hey...hows it going? eh...would be better...way better...I dont know whats been going on with me...maybe i dont deserve her and i just have to get it through my thick head that it was always coming. I just wish she would believe me...but who would believe me? im a liar...its what i do...and i've tried changing so much things...but it all came right back at me and knocked me down...i dont deserve anyone...defently not her...well...i wrote something new...ive had alot of time on my hands...been up all night...got about an hour of sleep...but thats what love does...eh...sorry about complaining all the time...i thought we could trust eachother now...
A Mask of Sorrow (january 8th)
So cruel to be this blind. Darkness will always be on my side. You reheased your words. You waited for this day to come. Now that you've come and gone. I know where I belong. Senses deadened again. Nothing lives this day. You should try to remember the good times. You should put away all this hate. Let the past stitch our wounds and seal our tears. Its way to early to give it all up. Just thinking of what I've done. And watch it all add up. Forgive me now, as I wear a mask of sorrow. Let the storm stay this night. So can you stay until we close our eyes? Til your dreams hold mine. Just stay until we know we've tried once more. Let me tell you the story. 'Cause laughing lovers can overcome anything. And they'll go on and they will never let go. Maybe the stars know why. We're the story that I know. We're so far into this story. So can't we stay. Until the gound below us splits us away. Can we stay up all night and watch the night stars dimmer in the darkness? I could wish all night. All these wishes have been for you. Go ahead call me a liar. I know you want to. Wide awake in the end. Trembling after the greatest fall. Its all too familiar. We've been here before. The same bitter arguments, just on different nights. Just let me come back. I swear it won't be like before. Even though I know. I dont want to know. I just hate how it sounds. I can't stop this agony. Cancel my theropy. 'Cause I just thought of you and now I'm fine. This hearts not broken. But where has the color gone? Its still amoung the lucky ones and burning longer then the sun.