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well i was suppost to go to the 80's dance tonight. i guess i just really didn't want to. yes i know something must be wrong with me, something must be going on because if there's one thing i love, it is to dance. i feel like all my problems fly away when i dance. they disguise themselves for me, for just one night. that one night of dancing, forgetting, and complete happiness. it was once nice to me. now i've realized how immature i use to be. how i always had felt i'd never have any problems. nothing was going to happen to me. no, never. well never say never. i might hang out with nikki s. tonight. i'm not sure though. hmmmm, let's talk about report cards shall we. i did horrible. with all the stress this past term i broke. i crumbled and now i'm finally getting back up to rearrange and put back all the pieces. hopefully forgetting some that i don't need in me anymore. i feel my heart is stronger today, more so than yesterday. for every day that's passed i've realized more and more about me and the person i want to be when i awake one day in the future. even when i awake tomorrow morning. it's nice. i like learning what i'm about. i realize i never took the time before. i was always worrying about everyone else's perspective on me. not anymore. i'm me and if you don't happen to like it, don't look at me or talk to me and there won't be problems. i can't wait for the summer to come. you know what that means. that means the beach and maybe even south carolina. i'll get to see preston and derek again. very nice. i'll get to see my cousins as well. i miss and love them all so much. a friend asked to go with me and i'm fine with that except i might not be able to stay as long as i'd originally have planned. all i know is either way i can't wait. plus there is a job in store for me. though it may not be the best job it pays rather well. 10 an hour, 30 hours a week. yes, i know i love it. haha i can't believe it. i'm listening to enrique iglesias and kelis. someone shoot me please lol. awww oh well i happen to like the song... deal with it, i am (somehow). tomorrow is friday. friday yet i won't be waking up at 6 in the morning tomorrow. nope. i shall be waking up at 12 or 1 which gives me time to clean and still make it to amanda's game at granby high. you all should come and cheer her on, she better do good lol (jk i know she will). i'm bringing molly with me. support is always good from friends. wow i need a shower. i don't know why concidering i just took one last night but i feel dirty for some reason. well i think maybe i'll go do that before i try calling nikki again. later yall.
To every broken heart in here
Love was once a part, but now it's disappeared
She told me that it's all a part of the choices that your making
Even when you think you're right
You have to give to take
But there's still tomorrow
Forget the sorrow
And I can be on the last train home
Watch it pass the day
As it fades away
No more time to care
No more time, today
But we sing
If we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason
To ever fall in love
I wonder if you're listening
Picking up on the signals
Sent back from within
Sometimes it feels like I don't really know whats going on
Time and time again it seems like everything is wrong in here
But there's still tomorrow
Forget the sorrow
And I can be on the last train home
Watch it pass the day
As it fades away
No more time to care
No more time, today
But we sing
If we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason
To ever fall in love
Well we sing if we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing if it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason to ever fall in love
But we sing
If we're going no where
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing with out a reason to never fall in love
To never fall in love again
To every broken heart in here
Love was once a part, but now it's disappeared
She told me that it's all a part of the choices that your making
Even when you think you're right
You have to give to take
But there's still tomorrow
Forget the sorrow
And I can be on the last train home
Watch it pass the day
As it fades away
No more time to care
No more time, today
But we sing
If we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason
To ever fall in love
I wonder if you're listening
Picking up on the signals
Sent back from within
Sometimes it feels like I don't really know whats going on
Time and time again it seems like everything is wrong in here
But there's still tomorrow
Forget the sorrow
And I can be on the last train home
Watch it pass the day
As it fades away
No more time to care
No more time, today
But we sing
If we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason
To ever fall in love
Well we sing if we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing if it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason to ever fall in love
But we sing
If we're going no where
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing with out a reason to never fall in love
To never fall in love again