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I constantly feel like I'm at war with myself.
There is always a battle going on in my head.
All I want out of life right now is to just be happy.
I try to be.
I forgive people so I don't have the weight of anger.
I foget when people hurt me so we can move on.
Then what happens?
People walk all over me.
And I don't get mad at them, I get mad at myself.
You HURT me.
You fucked up.
I did nothing wrong.
You constantly tell me how hard it is to NOT talk to me..
Well, It's just as hard for me TO talk to you.
But I give in. I answer the phone. Part of me wants to talk to you. Until everytime that I hang up it just feels like more and more of me disappears.
If I would have done this to you I don't think you would have ever forgiven me.
Stop trying to sympathize with me by telling me you understand.
She cheated on you and broke your heart. So knowing exactly how it feels you put the same pain on me. You decided that the 15 minutes you could get with her was worth more than our relationship.
I was THERE.
You could have EASILY walked up to me.
You didn't.
I don't care how drunk you were.
You weren't even thinking about me when I was in the SAME HOUSE AS YOU.
AHHHHHH
I'm so frustrated with life.
There is always a battle going on in my head.
All I want out of life right now is to just be happy.
I try to be.
I forgive people so I don't have the weight of anger.
I foget when people hurt me so we can move on.
Then what happens?
People walk all over me.
And I don't get mad at them, I get mad at myself.
You HURT me.
You fucked up.
I did nothing wrong.
You constantly tell me how hard it is to NOT talk to me..
Well, It's just as hard for me TO talk to you.
But I give in. I answer the phone. Part of me wants to talk to you. Until everytime that I hang up it just feels like more and more of me disappears.
If I would have done this to you I don't think you would have ever forgiven me.
Stop trying to sympathize with me by telling me you understand.
She cheated on you and broke your heart. So knowing exactly how it feels you put the same pain on me. You decided that the 15 minutes you could get with her was worth more than our relationship.
I was THERE.
You could have EASILY walked up to me.
You didn't.
I don't care how drunk you were.
You weren't even thinking about me when I was in the SAME HOUSE AS YOU.
AHHHHHH
I'm so frustrated with life.