♪♫ Ramona Flowers | Thirty-Five Evil Exes [VIDEO]

[hairlikethis]

You know... it's actually kind of a relief. Being out here, knowing for sure that there is a me back home and I'm just a copy and none of this is affecting anyone we know and life is just going on as usual

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[supervegan]

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I guess that means Envy's still okay.

But there's no point to anything here, then, is there?

[hairlikethis]

Are you kidding? It makes everything that happens here that much more important, dude! This is our entire existence! It's like...this is all that matters, because it's all we have!

We have to make the most of it.

[supervegan]

Well, I guess I'm doomed to have a pitiful fucking existence in every life, then.

[hairlikethis]

Only if you let yourself.

[supervegan]

I didn't let myself.

I was trying, Ramona. Really hard. But too much shit happened that was beyond my control. There is no reward for trying hard. It's all dumb luck.

[hairlikethis]

You keep talking in the past tense. Like you've given up.

Look at where we are! We're not just stuck in F1 and there is so much more to do and we're alive! They didn't kill us. Be thankful for that!

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[supervegan]

Lucas and Matthew are dating.

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[hairlikethis]

It was only a matter of time. I kinda figured...

You weren't expecting it, were you?

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[supervegan]

No.

Anyone who ever could've loved me is dead.

I'm a loser and I'm going to be nothing but a third wheel no matter how hard I try. I have given up.

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[hairlikethis]

What's stopping you from talking to new people? Or finding someone else to love?

No one thinks you're a third wheel.

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[supervegan]

I don't want to. I've tried too many times here and have nothing to show for it. I can't handle another failure.

Unless there's someone out there right now who wants me and will tell me so then I'm done. I don't have it in me to start fresh again. I need something now that proves that my efforts have mattered or I'm finished because I'm not going to bother trying for just a chance at having someone when there might be no one here I'm even compatible with anyways.

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[hairlikethis]

These things aren't just going to happen, Todd! Things with Jack didn't just happen. We had to work at it.

... I'm sorry, but if you're not going to work for what you want... maybe you--

don't deserve it. [Wow, that was bitchy. Old Ramona isn't completely dead.]

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[supervegan]

Excuse me? I've been fucking working it's just that everyone I've been working for died or likes someone else more now.

I tried with Envy, dead. I tried with Gideon, dead. I tried with Peach, dead. I tried with Lucas, and he's loved that little bastard Patel more all along. I've died here. I've gotten myself mentally reprogrammed here in an effort to be a better fucking person. I've dragged myself out of bed every morning despite everything I've lost. I've worked hard here just like I worked hard for my dad back home.

That's been the story of my life. Working hard but because it was for the wrong thing or because of some bad luck I get nothing and am just expected to pick myself up every time and go on like nothing happened. And now that it's finally weighed in too hard on me, people just treat me like I never tried at all.

I've gave it my all and I've been giving it my all my entire life. If bad luck means I can still have nothing to show for it, then I'm too damn tired to keep trying for nothing.

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[hairlikethis]

I don't know how to help you anymore, Todd.

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[supervegan]

Neither do I.

If something good finally happening to me is too much to ask for my efforts then maybe I was always beyond help.

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[hairlikethis]

Why don't you get back into music?