☽ Twenty Holes in the Moon // Video

Jun 15, 2011 20:15

Hey. Everyone. I've got a secret.

[Todd's finally caved in and had a few drinks despite trying to avoid it. Drinking makes him have a whole lot of feelings.]

All this time I've been hating on my parents and blaming them for my problems but...that's not okay anymore. That's not the truth. My parents were good people. My dad worked his ass off so I wouldn't have to, and so my kids wouldn't have to, and so on. All I had to do was...sit on my ass an inherit his company.

My parents are both pretty much fucking geniuses, and they tried really hard to have a kid, and...I dunno what went wrong but I couldn't pull more than a C in school even if I tried really hard, and it was pretty obvious that I wasn't cut out to run a company. I know they tried for another kid but it never happened.

So now dad's gotta find some other guy's kid to give all the shit he worked for to. And he had every right to hate me. But I yelled at him and ran away like a coward because I was too weak to take it. And then I got kidnapped. And I deserved that. Mom, Dad, I know you can't see this and you probably never will but I wish I could tell you that I love you and I'm sorry for being a failure.

And I think I might be responsible for...Gideon and Envy getting terminated, too. Because a life-wrecker like me doesn't deserve to get that close to anyone. Doesn't deserve to have their birthday remembered or...have a best friend. And then I beat the fuck outta people because I'm jealous that they get to be better than me. Even little kids, I get angry at them too.

So that's why I'm a terrible person, for the all of three people I talked to who didn't believe me. That's pretty much all I'm good at, is being terrible. So you can all go on hating me now, okay? Just let me have my one damn thing I'm good at.

But don't mention this when I'm sober again. I'll probably vaporize you. Most of you are probably too drunk to watch this whole thing anyways. Hopefully.

[[Private to Lucas Lee // 20% Unhackable]]

So you can stop being all insecure and shit about your childhood already. Everyone's awkward at one point. That's not the reason I did...anything I've done. You were probably never that bad in the first place.

This whole post isn't just for you but, I mean. Just saying.

c: alessa gillespie, c: milla vodello, todd ingram, c: alfred f jones (america)

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