BirThDaY
My birthday is comming up. just one hour left to go. I´m so tired of it. Of everything. I´m turning 21. Life has been realy hard up until now. I wonder if it´ll be like this forever. Somewhere along the way, I have lost who I really am. I was once occupied with things I no longer recognice as meaningful.
and I have lost more than I have won up until now. Perhaps I should have never moved away. Perhaps it waas a mistake to start studying at university after all. I hate it. I hate munich. I hate the people there. I hate everything. Why should I stay there any longer? If studying abroad doesn´t work out, I´ll leave. Where to? have no idea. Maybe I´ll go to Japan by myself. Or to Essen. I want to have someone around, who understands my way of thinking. Still,even after one year, I feel so lonely in munich. At the time when daisuke died, I felt really awfull. I didn´t kow what to do. And I had no onee to talk to, either.
Half an hor left.
and more wasted tiem has gone to waste.
Life here, has no meaning to me anymore.