Apr 02, 2007 18:21
Okay I've got something that’s been on my mind or awhile now and its pissing me off.
People
Who don’t know
Jacob and were like crying and saying shit about how nice he was, um do you even know who he is?
Yeah it’s nice that you care enough to say something but SRSLY.
wtf.
Okay that’s not what I’ve been thinking about but it’s been on my mind also.
Um, Adam.
Okay yeah we were cute together, and yeah he’s nice and I'm nice and we are nice together and yeah we were a lot alike but at the same time were not alike.
He’s the most racist person I know, and I’m sorry but I hate that. yeah I have my moments but only with some black people, but not all of them, I’m not stereotypical about them, and I’m sorry but I would rather date a Bryce over you anyway, yeah I said I loved you and oh lets get married in December, but no you freaked me out and scared the shit out of me. Stalking me basically, yes its sweet the rose and whatnot, but seriously, Saturday was hard, and today was the hardest. Oh and no I didn’t fuck Bryce if that’s what you were implying on your little voicemail thing.
Whatever Adam okay.
You may be hurt by this but just remember it was your fault. yeah I thought we were good for each other and maybe we will be in the future but right now, I know for a fact that I can not deal with your anger problems, because apparently I cant do anything right, and when I try to help people out its wrong, or when I try to just be there for someone its wrong.
Wtf Adam.
Ugh the way you made me feel on Friday pissed me off sooooo bad.
And the shit you said to me
omfg.
Yeah I know you know that what you said was wrong, but when someone says something like that so hurtful to me, I’m going to just go with it.
I’m glad you listened to my mother.
Or I would have said some things you wish you would never here.
Things change over night Adam.
Yeah people get old and die
Yeah people get into car accidents
Yeah people get hurt sometimes.
But life does go on
And things do get better.
Right now
Were in shock because of Jacob,
No matter what I will always be there for them boys, Bryce out of all of them.
He is more than just an ex-boyfriend.
He’s the one I’ve always loved.
Since 9th grade.
I remember the day we meet he said he was going to be with me forever no matter what.
We didn’t date for a whole other month.
The things Bryce and I have been thru are crazy.
Bryce lost more than a best friend he lost a brother.
And he told me I was the only one who could be there for him the most.
I’m trying my hardest.
But what you said to me on Thursday night let me know straight up that you didn’t care "if you go anywhere near Bryce, let alone shake his hand, you will be dead."
Who the fuck says that to someone they love?
Tell me who.
Because Bryce would never tell me that.
letting him move to Florida was hard, and then not seeing him over Christmas break, was even harder, yeah I might say I hate him but I probably only say that because me and Bryce fight a lot over things that don’t need to be fought about but because he knows to leave me alone until I get over it, things work out fine.
Its simple, Bryce is the only one for me and I’m the only one for him.
It’s been like that for how many years?
Yeah might have known you a good long time, but I’ve known Bryce longer.
When we were dating Adam, I was still trying to figure out who you were.
And with Bryce I already know.
Were in love and nothings going to change that.
And pulse, my mom is nice to him now.
Weird, but cool.
I need to go to sleep.