God sent me an angel from the heavens above...
I had this day today where all i thought about was my past.. i mean pretty much anything important thats ever happened to me was in my mind all day... the same thing never came up twice unless i thought i missed part of what happened or why. I went back to my old entries and even back to my old accounts entries and as i sit here in study hall thinking i sort of want to like stand up and start running up to every person thats EVER made me laugh, smile, had an inside joke with me, seen me at my best and worst, taught me that its ok to forget and forgive, let me know when i was wrong, or told me i was right when they werent, everyone who laughed when i wasnt funny or better yet laughed when i was, everyone who was honest to me and kept my secrets, and to everyone thats loved me ever in my life, i wanna go up to everyone person, not say a word JUST HUG THEM and in my mind KNOW that they were there for me, know that they did ALL those things for me and most of all that even the worst things theyve ever said to me can NEVER compare to the times when they made me happy. I look back on my entires and i put them in 3 catagories.... Sad/Bad times, Good times, and Fun memories. The only times i was sad, was when i was not ok with ONE single person...no one in particular just in general...ONE person that i was friends with and was fighting with me was the ONLY time i wrote something bad... The rest were happy and fun and funny and hopeful.
I could make a list, whip out my yearbook and tell every person thats touched me in some way exactly how i feel and even if i remember something horrible thats happened i guarentee theres atleast 20 more things that made me happy. You know those times when you think to yourself, right now i have NO ONE in the world who understands me, no one wants to be my friend, everyone is always fake? Well thats a lie and always will be, no one can fake all the things my friends have done for me. If someone does something mean, its a lesson not a mistake. If someone joke with you and all you can do is laugh for an hour about it, its a memory you wont forget. If someone makes you cry, you learn to get a thicker skin so next time it wont hurt you. If someone makes you smile, it teaches you to love.
So heres the naming part, and im gonna say everyone thts ever touched my life... not because i want to start anything, i just want each and everyone of those people know who they are and how they made high school what it is for me... Michelle A.- Always kept a smile on her face and through thick and thin she was the only person i could look to for a hug that was so amazing that no matter if it was good or bad it was one of the best things of my day.She is always positive and strong, and true to herself. Selina- For always showing me that i should be honest even when it could hurt and being bold and strong willed. Simone- For always letting me know that things people can do are horrible but without true friends we'd be nothing, and no matter what happens or who it is you ALWAYS stand up for and believe in your friends. Alisha- For pushing me to my best even when it was painful and i didnt want to, always telling me to strive and work through my problems and if it didnt work giving me a push to keep moving. Scarlett- for showing me that people wont always like you and no matter what you do it may never change things but to make it you have to make it work and for being one of the only people ive EVER been able to fully trust and let my guard down with. Lindsay- For helping me realize that through everything even with a past you can only become stronger even if it means letting go and being happy with yourself when no one else appreciates you, then you will be. Sara- Always the girl who you can look to to have the funniest conversation, the best laugh, or a true friend because even if something bad happens she'll always be true to anyone and the funnest person to be around. Tiffany- Always able to tell her anything in the world and know that she supports you, would do anything for you and believes enough in herself to never let what others do or say get her down. To be confident and believe in yourself. Rachael- Shes the girl would you can always know will be there to listen and help anyway that she can. Adrian- Always so fun, easy to get along with and under any circumstances will tell you how she feels.She will always be right by your side if you need a good friend. Michele C.- She shows me that is ALWAYS ok to be different and sometimes the best way to escape is to just say it how it is! She taught me that no matter what people do, you have to keep going and all through life there will be hard times, but you have to just see how you can go on and strive. Bridgette- She shows me that its not always good to be like everyone else and that you have to enjoy life as it comes, always be spontaneous, and to never hold too many grudges because lifes better when its fun not a problem. Mary G- Always tries to see the best in everyone even when she can see it in herself. She teaches me to stay strong because life is not perfect and to have a good one you have to work at it and see the good in everything including things you dont want to. Elle- She shows me that its better to stay positive and nice to everyone instead of rude because along the way you will strive if you really have good friends and never treat others the way they see some are treated. I love that shes always there to have a serious convo or a funny one and no matter what shes 2000% helpful and loving. Natalie- The thing that means the most to me about natalie is that shes the type of person you can always let your guard down and tell her how you feel, you can have the most amazing time hanging out with, or the person that has a convo with you about anything and makes you feel like you are on top of the world. Adry- I love hanging out with adry because she shows me that life is fun and even the stressful things can be the best things in life. She always cares and never stops just because anyone else doesnt want to listen. She teaches me that every day is amazing and that SHIT HAPPENS but if you are strong and work it out, you will go on perfectly. Lauren- how to begin... Shes living proof that people can change and that confindence is strong, not being fake to people is the best thing you can do, and that she will stick by your side forever, even if it means jepordizing something in her own life. She shows me that being you is ok and though opinions may never change, being YOU is all you can ever be, and to just except that and keep smiling.
Love xoxo Ivy