Dude I just woke up and. . .
Wow, Im already feeling really down.
Maybe its the weather is ugly, maybe its from a couple thoughts in my head, blah.
I realized if for one day I didnt call any one and just waited for a call to go out, I'd never get it. If I didnt call a bunch of people daily I would be home everyday all day, with the exceptions of school and work, shit even when I do call a lot of people I sit home more often than not.
ALTHOUGH, yesterday was an exception to never getting a call, for Sam called me<3 :) BUT shes only home for the weekend, so it like falls in the margine of error.
I'm sick of games, really. I just wanna KNOW for once, I dont like the feeling of anxiousness and being scared and all that jazz. God damnit.
Today: pick up check, possibly get nails done, tan?, work on reserach paper(I HAVE to), and I promised Kyle I'd go to his party, and I'm sure its gunna be nutz! and I want to go, but I dont alone, blah, we'll see if I can push myself to go alone
I was gunna get all ready and cute today, but I think I lost the point to do so.
Maybe its the weather is ugly, maybe its from a couple thoughts in my head, blah.
I realized if for one day I didnt call any one and just waited for a call to go out, I'd never get it. If I didnt call a bunch of people daily I would be home everyday all day, with the exceptions of school and work, shit even when I do call a lot of people I sit home more often than not.
ALTHOUGH, yesterday was an exception to never getting a call, for Sam called me<3 :) BUT shes only home for the weekend, so it like falls in the margine of error.
I'm sick of games, really. I just wanna KNOW for once, I dont like the feeling of anxiousness and being scared and all that jazz. God damnit.
Today: pick up check, possibly get nails done, tan?, work on reserach paper(I HAVE to), and I promised Kyle I'd go to his party, and I'm sure its gunna be nutz! and I want to go, but I dont alone, blah, we'll see if I can push myself to go alone
I was gunna get all ready and cute today, but I think I lost the point to do so.