when in doubt, get down on your knees and suck.
the other day my old friend jeanette overdosed, and ever since then things have been kinda-sorta empty. just thinking of all the fat parties we threw at my house when my family was out of town brings memories. and she introduced me to mike, and louie and maryjane and all those kids. i owe her a lot. it makes me sad to see her go, she just falls into what was excepted. her mom was a prostitute and her father was a cab driver, its like her destiny just swept her up or something. she and i left our relationship on such bad terms, and i wish i could have told her that i was sorry for being a bad friend. and the worst part about all of this isnt the emotion or sadness, its the lack of it. its the feelings i don't want to feel. the feeling i fear i can't feel anymore.
how can you burn away your past when you can't let go of anything?
how can you burn away your past when you can't let go of anything?