Good Day/Bad Day
So I have really terrible coping mechanisms. I have just gotten home from spending a week with Vic, and it was a really great week, a wonderful week in fact. Needless to say I did not want to leave yesterday to come back here. But I have class and work and I really have no choice. Lately I have become terribly frustrated with the fact that we live so far apart. Not at all in the "I don't think I can be with you way", more of the "Fuck school I don't care if I fail" way. This is not good. Also I have been taking out my frustration on the one person I shouldn't take it out on. I am not depressed, but I am anxious for the last month of this semester to be done with. I want to be with Vic. It wouldn't be so bad if we lived in the same place and could see each other on a regular basis but being so far apart and being so close to living with each other has really begun to grate on me. The way I cope is not healthy and its not fair to him. I find myself becoming distant and short, even though its not how I feel. I snap easier and I am far more moody than usual. I know the last thing I should do is withdraw from the university and move now, but I must admit that I am sorely tempted. Please nobody worry, I won't do it, not this close to the semester being over, but I apologize if I seem bitter or grouchy. Its nothing anyone did, only situational.