MY LIFE IS GOOD but not great
So far this week I have spent as much time as possible with Joe. THen again so has his friend Duncan every night Duncan has something he wants to do with Joe and it is kind of frustrating because it would be nice to go out with Just Joe. At the same time I recognize I am not the only one who misses Joe. I just wish I didn't have to share I am selfish and I know it. On a better note it seems that Duncan doesn't hate me and in fact doesn't mind having me around which is nice. I still feel awkward around him though, Im an outsider..
Then again I am still crazy no reason to be thinking about it but as I lay down to go to sleep the first thing I think is only 11 more days with Joe, and then I started crying because I was thinking about how he will be going to Germany and I don't know when He and I will have the opportunity to see one another again. He will be there for two years and I am not looking forward to being without him for such a long period of time, 8 weeks was hard enough now I am looking at 6 months or so. The prospect is daunting and the task is not an easy one, but I want to be strong and not let him see how scared I am inside. I love him and being away from him kills me inside. I feel empty without him.
Then again I am still crazy no reason to be thinking about it but as I lay down to go to sleep the first thing I think is only 11 more days with Joe, and then I started crying because I was thinking about how he will be going to Germany and I don't know when He and I will have the opportunity to see one another again. He will be there for two years and I am not looking forward to being without him for such a long period of time, 8 weeks was hard enough now I am looking at 6 months or so. The prospect is daunting and the task is not an easy one, but I want to be strong and not let him see how scared I am inside. I love him and being away from him kills me inside. I feel empty without him.