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(Just to let you know these names are substitutes for the real ones)
I fell in love with Marcus to be crushed by him so.... we went on break
I met someone new…John----> Turns out I was still in love with Marcus. Plus John was too immature for me. But we still remain friends which is really cool.
SO I finally get over Marcus…I met two new guys Stan and Colin….that I am interested in and then Marcus comes back into my life. Though, I should have expected it because I am friends with all of his friends and I see him at night usually.
But I just talked to Marcus (yeah I know I did start liking him again but in the wrong way (yes the sexual way)) but I still was confused as to what I wanted (no, I did not have sex with him…we just played around. but that still doesn’t mean I didn’t want him so bad)
It was about two days ago I went to the floor where all our friends hang out. I said hey to everyone and I passed by Bob's place and in the corner of my eye I saw my Marcus’s brother, Tristan. I popped in the door way and said my hellos seeing his arm was around some girls neck I giggled and left. I could feel the hurt on my cheeks as I turned and then it hit me. All of our long talks that last until sunrise and the sheer fact we are so comfortable together that we share everything no matter how personal it is. (It is every quality that I like in Marcus I find to be better with Tristan plus I can open up to him so much more than I could with Marcus.) I did not like Marcus I like Tristan. I do not care if Marcus has girls hanging off him but I was pissed when Tristan was just sitting with a girl whom I did not even know.
So while I am digesting the fact I like Marcus's brother (I felt so dirty) I explaining this to my friend Cheri, whom you know is my best friend that is almost my clone. Her answer surprised me. She said go for it! What I am I suppose to do. Plus Tristan thinks I still like his brother and last night Tristan, Luke, and me were talking about my problem with Marcus. Luke said I should talk to him about it.
So I did and I and Marcus talked the whole night. I almost fell for him again until I heard he almost had sex with Tiffany. That week we were trying to see other people well it was during then. He said he was buzzed and had smoked too. That is a sad excuse. Plus that is gross...Tiffanny fucked his best friend Shawn fully knowing and after meeting his girlfriend. Then she and Marcus hooked up that night…they did not have sex but it was close to it. All I did when we were not together was make out and then I stopped the boy because I felt like I was cheating on Marcus for some stupid reason.
Well that is the basic abridged version of my problem….(yes it gets worst but then I would be writing a novel)
I fell in love with Marcus to be crushed by him so.... we went on break
I met someone new…John----> Turns out I was still in love with Marcus. Plus John was too immature for me. But we still remain friends which is really cool.
SO I finally get over Marcus…I met two new guys Stan and Colin….that I am interested in and then Marcus comes back into my life. Though, I should have expected it because I am friends with all of his friends and I see him at night usually.
But I just talked to Marcus (yeah I know I did start liking him again but in the wrong way (yes the sexual way)) but I still was confused as to what I wanted (no, I did not have sex with him…we just played around. but that still doesn’t mean I didn’t want him so bad)
It was about two days ago I went to the floor where all our friends hang out. I said hey to everyone and I passed by Bob's place and in the corner of my eye I saw my Marcus’s brother, Tristan. I popped in the door way and said my hellos seeing his arm was around some girls neck I giggled and left. I could feel the hurt on my cheeks as I turned and then it hit me. All of our long talks that last until sunrise and the sheer fact we are so comfortable together that we share everything no matter how personal it is. (It is every quality that I like in Marcus I find to be better with Tristan plus I can open up to him so much more than I could with Marcus.) I did not like Marcus I like Tristan. I do not care if Marcus has girls hanging off him but I was pissed when Tristan was just sitting with a girl whom I did not even know.
So while I am digesting the fact I like Marcus's brother (I felt so dirty) I explaining this to my friend Cheri, whom you know is my best friend that is almost my clone. Her answer surprised me. She said go for it! What I am I suppose to do. Plus Tristan thinks I still like his brother and last night Tristan, Luke, and me were talking about my problem with Marcus. Luke said I should talk to him about it.
So I did and I and Marcus talked the whole night. I almost fell for him again until I heard he almost had sex with Tiffany. That week we were trying to see other people well it was during then. He said he was buzzed and had smoked too. That is a sad excuse. Plus that is gross...Tiffanny fucked his best friend Shawn fully knowing and after meeting his girlfriend. Then she and Marcus hooked up that night…they did not have sex but it was close to it. All I did when we were not together was make out and then I stopped the boy because I felt like I was cheating on Marcus for some stupid reason.
Well that is the basic abridged version of my problem….(yes it gets worst but then I would be writing a novel)